O.k. Here goes.
I was married in 1999 to a man that I really loved and I thought he felt the same way.
During the course of the relationship we had various problems which range from his mom not liking me and the fact that I occasionally had conversation with my ex-boyfriend.
In 2000 he moved back home with his parents and I moved in after a two/three week separation. I got pregnant about one/two months later. During the pregnancy I found out that he was seeing another woman, so I moved out. The baby came and we moved back in together in our own place May 2001.
December 2001 strange things started happening again and I found out that he was seeing someone. We fought many times on my initiating it - I am not proud of it but I am a very aggressive person. We fought on New Years Eve over a little stupid issue of not having gas in the car, and that ruined our new year 2002. February 13th we had another stupid argument about the car and he moved out on February 14th 2002 and left me and our daughter behind.
I really did love him and he is now living with another woman. We have not filed for a divorce and I do not want to get one. I am very religious and he was tooo.
During the past year of our separation there have been alot of ups and downs. I have gone over to the apartment where they have been staying and demanded that he come out and talk to me. I was in the apartment for about one hour talking to him and he eventually left with me. But, that did not change anything he is not with me, this was in May 2002.
We have been together intimately a few times since the break up and sometimes we have a good talking relationship and sometimes it's not so good.
In January of this year he came over to my apartment and spent some time with me, we slept together, he wanted to leave, I refused to let him go. His cell phone rang I answered it....it was the other woman and that caused a big drama. After he left I kept his cell phone got her number out called her and told her that she had stolen a part of my family and it was very hard for me to deal with this whole thing.
Our daughter spends most of her time with my grandmother on another island, but when she is with me he hardly ever spends time with her I always have to beg him and plead with him. Before we were separated he was the most loving father any baby girl could ever have. Now it is totally diferent.
Lastnight, 28th Feb, 2003 I went to a popular hangout just to pick up something from a friend of mine and he (my husband) was there with his girlfriend. I totally lost it. I immediately left and went to wait on them until they arrived at the road nearest to where they lived. I blocked them off so they were stuck in the road. We alljust sat there for 5 minutes then I got out to talk to him but he would'nt screw the glass down. I busted the glass, the girl called the police it is her car. The police came I have to pay for the glass. I have told the police that he owes me child support ans when he pays me I will fix the glass.
And that is where I am at this point.
I know now after all this he is probably not EVER coming back, but I feel as though I have to get satisfaction for all the hurt my daughter and I are going through, and I will not let him live in peace with her as long as I live.
I know this is silly but sometimes it really is hard to get a grip on this.
His mom does'nt even care about the whole situation.
I am so lost and don't know what to do. I have a really goo job and my family is my strong tower that I have to lean on. they don't know about all the drama but they are there when I need them.
The last thing I want right know is anyone's pity, I just need advice.
Pebbles
