Darkshadow

It has been years. I have returned to share a piece: Mind Apocalypse rain drops splatter loud storm thundering there goes my crown hit the ground crumbling life fades too fast check point throw coins free paid fines for the golden pass step back big sorrow steps bring back wasted time spent wish you would've went so fix the past f*ck it next time go no blind toughen up never deaf listen enough pilot mode on auto switch to grand theft audio red flash meant go until there's nothing really left yeah and here I am still standing with my sad face wife hates no place no bliss no grace all punk no poise no nothing no toys child cry broken empty harsh full tank words spoken drilled echo pain full noise heart pain burst feign silent dream shot flash brains car crash scream passed bad past revolution failed evolution big name waste clean waste bad taste that solution never came go wait empty plate spoiled humor fed stupor generational raid with a hint of blue sued turned red countless dead blank heads spoiled mind bow tie all blind no sight click it first class ticket short flight dead end free fall police calls violent fight no bed long nights riots bleed angry earth fed crowd moist wrong spilled splat blood web tears flow bombs off friends die moms cry fathers ask why pride ends kids fly white gates, locks, clouds shed loud wings storm in dark sounds pockets full posey stained fluent with a rose red cause what goes around comes around then we all fall down enough said

If I'm correct I believe nothing. Kissing and hugging perhaps. But not even if you are truly devoted.

There is nothing freakish about this piece. It is an escape to view and feel alive in thought. The sharing of blood, it reminds me of some of my most precious moments, more than intimacy it is a last heartbeat faced with eternity. Wonderful, the thoughts it brings. -Tony

No worries Shadows_Light. I just had to be more clear, it is clearly my mistake not to mention the requested specifics.

I do not fantasize about girls liking girls, and by now I have realized many people do not understand simple questions. May I repeat I put none of my character into these questions. They are simple questions and should be left at that. Realise that these questions are very close to "yes" and "no" questions. I ask for no opinion. Just a simple answer. But people who are "moved" or possibly "offended" seem to state more than any answer but fit in their useless opinions. There really is no need to try and convince or prove or inflict your opinions because these questions do not require them. Yes or No. As simple as existing. I do not care or wish to read what you 'think' I just simply would like a yes or a no. There is no need to make fools out of yourselves. And any further opinions against or for what I type now is just plain immature. But if I have affected you that much please amuse me with your insults or attempts to understand of figure something that has no need to be refined. These forums are for help, am I correct? (Please don't answer that). I'm not looking for help with opinions or help "finding" this girl. I just need help with finding a "yes" or a "no", nothing more. The first reply (by a man) was actually a perfect example on what these answers should look like. Simple without emotions. Unless of course you are deeply enraged for people to read your opinions and desperately want to be "understood". I ask please do not repeat to me on what I already know. If I wanted to know what you have replied to me I would have asked. Remember, YES or NO. Simplicity is often overrated by the mislead. (Which are those who give too much of what is not asked for) Remember you are NOT your OPINION. Thank you. P.S. Not everyone NATURALLY has desire for someone else. Some absolutely don't have any form of desire of that sort. That is just the majority and what you've lived on. Puberty hits yes, but if it is just hormones that control desire then what is your point? Your opinion on what you know would be based on puberty and hormones, not who you are. And on Camelot, you seem too young to even be sure that it has even existed. A bit stereotypical.

I already know that trust me. Just a simple "to know" kind of question. I put none of my character or emotions into this. 'A simple poll of a sort. Not that I really want to know I'm just looking to be amused as I have no other source of amusment for the moment. I mean no offense, Sorry but I do take it I may be being judged. But that doesn't matter. Just a couple questions not based on opinion of other's, just truthful statements. I should have made that more clear.

Just hold on, you may just be getting what you need, the strength, to go through and walk through this hell for her. She is strengthening you, just don't give up! Trust me. How could she not love you? 8 Years. Read this thing I wrote, maybe it will rally you up. Fight it. Win this battle for her. Shouting Heights I want to hold you On the highest mountaintop scream your name, It's a shame, I will steal you away. I will cry out my lungs that I feel you, That I need you, That I'll kiss you on the highest of heights, Spinning in circles the specter of our highest kiss, Above the clouds the echo of my love for you. Scream with pain I will, Louder than the loud, Above the castles made of clouds, Oh so very very loud. My lovely spin with me in the happiness of these heights, We will conquer mountaintops, I will fly with you my dearest, I will shout my loudest love for you For all the small of the world to hear, The song of my heart for you my dear. I will shake the world with the power you give me, The flight beneath your winds, The energy of you Flowing through my chest into and out through my lungs. Into the air we breathe. This heavy air can't take me down. You are my security, You within me. I will shout my pain through like thunder, My desperate aching for your heartbeat on mine. Your face is more than fine, Lovely kiss me gently and force, Force your power into me and kill my pain, Replace it to face it with your Aura of lovely existence. My love, my dear, I shout these heights with fearless might. I will go on so strong as your companion. We can't be stopped, shove the weak aside, This is where we abide, We will go on. Don't give up, I will shout these heights. When the time comes I will comfort you gently, Rest your head on the softest cloud. I won't speak loud, I will speak softly, So softly I will tickle your ear, So softly I will release your fears. I will gaze into your eyes, To find our happiness. Bliss forever and secure it with a kiss. A kiss so soft and moist it will never be forgotten. Our hearts will tremble, Our eyes will subside Into the heaven created in our hearts. I will kiss you with everything that I am, With all that I am, and that I will be For you, you so lovely. I will kiss you into a different world, Beyond anything we've ever seen. I'll take you with me, To safety. I will fight the army in the rain, Absorb the many many pains, Go down shouting your lovely name. As said before my cry will flow through the clouds, Louder than thunder, Louder than anger. I will rise, not to surprise But to reveal. That I do not fear, For you are here to heal. Heal my suffers, mend them so tight. I give you my life, Hold it safely my special one. Give it purpose to move on. To grow strong. I will carry you through the rain, Through and passed the pain. Over and above the suffering, I will take you with me. I am stabbed through my heart, This pain so intense, But I love it. It gives me laughter, It makes me feel so alive. I can shout until I cry, I will not lie. I will shout these heights for you. I will shout these heights for us. We will kiss above the weak, We will find our happiness together. Stay strong, You aren't what is wrong. It is not us but those who aren't strong. Fight for yourself and I will join you. We will fight to live together, I will take all your burdens my love. I will carry them through Hell, I will slave them to the end of our highest mountaintop, And throw them off to fly. We will be lighter than the clouds we play on. We will fly to our stars and our memories forever, Forever holding on to each other. Nothing can stop us. Listen to the rain, my love. Each and every beat represents, The seconds my heart beats for you. Let this be true. Let us be true and one. One forever but two in love. I will not push you aside. We will fall accross our separate paths. But only to meet at the crossroads again. Don't give in. I will follow you to the end of time, and past. If you can let me please. Please live, Live with me, We will live together, Not in material but in paradise. Paradise of mind and energy. Your heart beating within me. My heart beating within you. Let this be true. My love let us be true. I will shout these Heights for you. -Tony

Keep going please. I wanna hear some more, I was feeling it man! Write all those pages !

Lol you crack me up

He's probably really hurt that you had a child with his friend still, and deep down a part of him wants to pretend that you guys had never split up and this all was just a giant nightmare. He's probably going on and off about how much he used to love you and how happy he was with you and he loves that he is getting closer to that feeling again, but then he might get reminded and lose all hope to realise the truth, and what did happen. That you guys did break, and you did move on and have a child. Maybe he thinks he is in a terrible nightmare and is waiting to wake up. I don't know but that's what I think I would feel.

I don't know if you are feeling what I'm feeling, but I for some reason don't have much feelings anymore. I mean I am a bit depressed but nothing related to relationships. I do not have any desire for relationships as well. It doesn't matter to me what other people say or think, but I'm really surprised to read that you have no desire as well. It kind of helps me breathe a little better. But it is very hard to find that little "good feeling" inside of me now. I only get happy through singing really loud, or fighting someone, or even playing and caring for animals. But that's about it.

I really don't like having that feeling.

Is there any girls out there who absolutely had no desire for anyone and is waiting for the man of her dreams to save her? Or trying to find him? Is there any girls who had never gave any form of sexual contact with anyone else? Is there any girl who does not think of other girls in a sexual way, or desire? Is there any virgin girls who are absolutely dedicated to their future love? Any girls who haven't even kissed or more amazingly hugged another guy?

God I know exactly what you mean. I swear I make sure I'm everything for her but it means nothing..

I do get my childhood kicks ever-so often (Rebellious acts against society and getting away with it with dark humor and sociopathy) Nice talking to you.