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mm well dunno how to start.. i guess with a little background: As a kid I was sexually abused by 2 people one was a neighbord and a friend of my cousin and the other was my cousin. i was about 6 years and the saxual abuse lasted about 2 or 3 years. So that isnt the eral problem the thing is that i would like to get over this. that happened i cannot do annything but the major problem is that sometimes my responses to stuff is kinda weird for example sometimes when people touch me o hug me im like too sensible, r just dont like it at all, I get triggered easily and wll i would like to do something about it but I reallyhave no diea where to start o waht to do.. so any advice?

well... i need some advice with ppl that know about the school system... not exactly. Here's the thing: ummm i have been in plenty of schools, and i cannot stay a even a year they just hate me... i'm labeled as a troublemkaer, leader of killers, anarchist, punk, and lots of things like that. but since last year i've been in the same school it really has been the more strict system but i haven't got into to much troubles because i found lots of good friends and i try to keep myself away from troubles so i can be with my friends. this year i was changed to a classroom i really hate and i have got in to to much troubles i tried to talk to someone for a change of classroom but it seems like no one will listen to me. i tried to talk to the principle but she said that NO she didn't even let me speak she just said NO i won't , could you leave my office i'm busy. and all the other ppl (including teachers and other ppl like that) are just to coward to say something or the others just hate me. what can i do?? this time i don't want to go to other school. and staying in that classroom is not an option.

as deep as.....i dunno like 1.5 inches

The one i love

i guess i needed to update this watching that ppl is still posting. i donot do SI well i do but im trying stop (21 days SI free ) its not so bad. not that i want but a have no choice... so wathever.

WOW thats DEEP and good

11 days without cutting!!! WOW ok at least im surprised and happy

i wanted to add this: you leave them 'cuz they need time to assimilate and try to understand. thats better for both cuz if you dont go they probably will say something that hurts you even if they apologize later i still hurts. you may feel guilty after tell them but they feel even more guilty so remember to tell them it isn't their fault.

telling to your GP to tell your parents is a good idea but if you want to tell them by yourself i think you should: (this should be in the morning before going to school or before you have to do something really important) 1- you tell them you have to tell them something really important but they have to promise not to freak out or say something before they investigate exactly what is that. 2-then you say -i SI and i want to stop 3-you look to ther eyes and tell them -before say something plz just dont punish me i didnt wanted im sorry. 4-you say -sorry its late we talk later i have to go to... you go to school or to do something important (this place has to be out of your house) 5- when you return they would have searched about that and maybe a little bit more relaxed and it will be easier to talk. good luck and take care

thank you guys you really helped.

i have told it to a friend and he is really suppportive i was going to tell it to friend but her mom died just a weeks ago and i think that i should be for her instead of making more prblems.and another person (she is not my friend but she says i am her friend...so whatever)i didnt told her is just that se read some posts on a web page and then she(like everyday) tried to "fix" me i told her i wasnt a cutter that i was reading that cuz friend was a cutter i think she believed that. but im NOT ready to quit. 0X

ummm here it goes: since i was young i mean like 6 years old when i was suppose to start to understand things about god and religion...i just i believed in god but not in religions i mean i never believed in humans. but now that im grown or maybe just a little im clompetely atheist.i dunno why but i think that the things that happen make us change. My biology teacher says im too young to decide that (she is almost the only good teacher at my school) but ...whatever...

hi guys i was just wondering what do you thing about religions...and whats your religion? not racist or something...just curious.

Yes im gonna stay at a friends house but just for a couple days i mean i think its abusive ask a friend to stay at her house 3 weeks. and about an uncle/aunt house i dunno i donot think so. most of them at mad at me b/c i told them i was ahteist but maybe i can stay with my favorite cousin he is an awesome guy and he is 26 but not to much time maybe just a few days. im not completely alone at house the searvent is too. and my little brother but he is at home only at night.

i dunno how to start ummmm yesterday i cut myself really really bad i thought it was going to be a tiny cut...ok maybe not tiny but something just normal but it wasnt. i bleed for hours i was just i dont know i guess i had a panic attack or something...my first1. im just afraid of being with myself i can hurt me a lot more than i could have ever imaginated .but i dont wanna stop i just dunno what i want, and im going to be alone at home a lot of time cuz my parents are on vacations and i am at home with my big brother but hes never at home he is always in a party or something... im just affraid of cutting so bad...again