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  1. It's a mindjob. If it's a popular song, it is just a coincidence, albeit a painful one. Thinking otherwise will make you think the world is against you and trying to bring you down. Just remember, it's a coincidence and change the station.
  2. Heya man. Been a while. Finally got my * * * * sordid out, but I'm back with another woman issue. As far as this, just let it go, and keep on keepin on.
  3. PLease tell me girls don't do this? This is just dumb. Why would someone do that?
  4. All's quiet on the Kentucky front, guys. Maybe that's a good thing, though.
  5. Meh. Life is what it is. It doesn't help that I'm feeling sick again. Just got over the damned flu. It just goes back to the ex being one of the ionly people that can make me extremely happy and extremely sad in the blink of an eye. She said to me the other day, we get what we want in life. I had to laugh. Do I get to be with the one I love? Do I get to live in the house we bought? Do I get to be happy again? No no no! We don't, becuase too many things are out of our control. because what she wanted and I wanted were different, i lose out on what made me happy. How's that getting what I want out of life? But I'm just angry right now. I also have a head ache. out
  6. It's more vicious cycle of tears than depression anyways. no harm done. Almost a year and I still can't quite move on. heh lifes a * * * * * sometimes.
  7. BK, depressed guys can get girls. But you have to be Emo, and nobody wants that. Besides, anorexia is mandatory I think. Lots of crying is okay. But you'd also have to be bi, which would really defeat the purpose, I think. Hang in there everyone.
  8. She wants it. Just say "Hey. Mind if I go down on you?"
  9. The only solution is to accept that this is how it is. You're not the first, only, or last to be this way. Personally, I think it's cute when girls are a little clutzy. Could always just force yourself. If you do something once it only gets easier from there. You have to take that initial leap before you discover if you can soar or not.
  10. Blah blah blah. We can't sit around and have a pity party. Where's the fun in that? By definition it's almost the opposite of fun. And the reason why guys wait to call is because some girl told a guy friend a long time ago about the "Three Day Rule". She thought it'd be funny, but he told friends, and they told friends, and so on. So now it's ingrained in the general psyche that there actually ARE rules, and that this is example is one of them. The truth is, if I call the next day that means I was excited and couldn't wait. If she isn't okay with that, oh well. Move on to the next. Girls and guys are all delusional about things like this. "If I do this, what will he think?" "Will she think bad of me if I do this?" WHO CARES? The truth of the matter is if someone DID think bad of you for anything you did that is part of your personality, then they're not the one. If you feel you have to change yourself to be more attractive to the other person, then they're not the one. It's later when that happy-go-lucky, hold my hand baby, first kiss kind of puppy dog love is over that you should do these things. THAT's what real lov is. If it's a change that doesn't hurt anyone, you do it. He would like you to try cutting your hair? It'll grow back. She wants you to quit smoking? It's healthier. So basically, now that I've strayed quite far from the subject hand, there are no rules. If a guy doesn't respect you because he slept with you quickly, he didn't respect you in the first place. Would a guy feel disrespected? No. Why? That's obviously what everyone involved wanted. It's like the old idea that a guy can sleep with a lot of women and he's a man's man, but if a girl sleeps with a lot of guys she's a \/\/h0re. Is it any different? No. Just know that there are no rules. Do what you want, and if the other person can't handle it, then they can leave. Until a deeper relatinoship has been created, of course.
  11. Damn the ex. She comes over today and we were talking about Christmas. I said "I'm looking forward to it, even though I don't have a tree." We both agreed that was a sad thing. I mentioned how it was like when we first moved out eight years ago, or so. She says "I thought about that the other. I remembered how you put christmas lights up in the shape of a tree. It made me cry. It's funny, looking back, because at the time I thought it was sweet but now I think it was just amazing." I think it was amazing too. The story goes, it was our first Christmas on our own. We didn't have a tree, but bought some lights for the apartment. She was pretty upset about not having a tree, so I took a string of lights and some thumbtacks and hung on the wall in the shape of a tree. I thought she may like that. Thinking about it now makes me cry too. We were so damned happy, and now nothing. She's the first person I ever really cared about other than myself. I did that to cheer her up, and it did. Now, 8 years later, she says how amazing that was to do. All I could say was, "yeah. Makes me cry too" As the tears started. I mean, it was a small observation and compliment. Not meant to hurt. And it does. It's almost been a year since it ended. I'm still not totally okay. We share those memories together. Things that never would have happened if we were with other people. Things that were just for us. And now they mean next to nothing. And yet, I can be called amazing sometimes. I can be told she never doubted my love for her. And in the same breath be told that I obviously don't want her to be happy. That I only worry she'll have a better life without me. I mean, what the hell am I supposed to do with that? She knows I still hurt and love her. She knows that it causes a lot of problems for me. Yet, it still doesn't matter one bit. I'm just worried for her and my son. Happy or not, I worry. But she can't seem to grasp the concept of me just worrying because I care. She tracks it all back to jealousy. It seems nice guys to finish last sometimes. I'm by no means a saint, but I'm not so horrible as to wish her unhappiness. Not any more. I've lost track of what I was saying here. I just know that I feel like crap right now because of a story about Christmas lights from 8 years ago.
  12. I will be buying a gift for the ex's new BF this year. I've decided he shall receive coal. He's earned it. I bet they'll both think it'll explode though.
  13. All I can suggest is medical treatment. I don't think there's much of anything that can be done otherwise. That does suck, but at least he's willing to try and do something about it.
  14. Yeah, and sex in porn is a fantasy, mostly. Do good to keep that in mind.
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