What is up---
I'm a 20 year old lady who just broke up with a 28 year old lady. I met her two years ago and fell completely inlove with her- issues and all. She had alot of insecurities and an addictive personality and ontop of all this i met her while she was in a 4 year relationship. Eventually she left her girlfriend to be with me and although we live hundreds of miles apart- we made it work for a year and a half. She was my first girlfriend and first love... i also came out to my parents with her- so losing this huge role in my life has been quite devestating.
That being said i understand that this is a part of life and love. I try and look towards the future with optimism and realize the parts of the relationship that were negative. Near the end it was me travelling to see her all the time (a big financial comittment) and her issues with herself were being taken out on me. She was losing herself in drugs and parties and treated me badly.
It's hard though, when i am still dealing with my parents' issues with my homosexuality to not crave her affection. I remember the times we spent together inlove, in bed, in her car ...and weap.
She recently called me aggrevated that i had not replied to her previous calls. I told her that i couldn't speak to her for a while, that i needed to time to heal. She took this very offensively and basically said 'well then goodbye for good!'. Now i know this is her being hurt and overreacting but i can't help but fall in a rutt whenever i think of not knowing her...'for good'!
Any advice for a first-time-heart-break-victim?
Sandra
