My boyfriend broke up with me and I want to move on. Well sometimes I think I want to move on but most of the time I just hope and pray that he would just come back. I've tried to seek advice from others, I've even tried comparing my relationship with others but I always end up still wanting him back. I wasn't ready for him to leave. I was comfortable with our relationship, so comfortable in fact, that I didn't plan living without him. How could he just up and leave me? What did I do? I loved him so much I still do and I know it may sound stupid of me but I still wait on his return. Everyone thinks I've moved on and I led them to think that only to spare myself from the criticism. But deep down I stiil want him. I thought that after two years this feeling would somehow go away but it won't, it haunts me every single day. I know it sounds like an obsession but please understand I gave him my heart and he left without giving it back. Sometimes I sit in bed thinking of how he hurt me and wonder why I still want him. I wonder why would anyone want someone that dont want them, but I just do. I miss him. I think he left me because I gained weight when I had our son. But he could have just left because one day he woke up and wonder what the hell he was doing with this ugly girl. Just listening to this is making me feel dumb. I just want to move on, he did. He got married. How could he marry her when I love him. And why do I love him and he married her. That would be the last straw for any sane person, but not me, what is it going to take for me to let him go. I don't want to let him go I want him to come back. God help me!