I don't know whats wrong with me. Most of the time I feel fine, but lately I don't know. I start thinking about life and realize that I don't see why life is. What is it and why. Nobody knows and I can't stand it. I feel like my family hates me. I only have one really close friend and she is bipolar and I'll just talk to her and if she doesn't agree she will blow up on me and make me feel stupid and worthless. I know she doesn't really mean it but It really hurts. I also get these crying spells and I will start breathing really hard and get dizzy. I will feel sick. I don't know whats wrong with me. When I get all like this The only thing that makes me feel better is my razor. I don't know what to do anymore and I don't know who to tell. I want to tell my mom but she won't under stand she will think I am making it up and I dont want to tell my only really close friend because I dont want her to think I am stupid.
