zentoCC
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Inferno by Dante Alighieri. Hard work. Much harder than Ultimatum by Simon Kernick which was my last book.
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Post here instead of contacting your ex!
zentoCC replied to Nynnja's topic in Healing After Break Up or Divorce
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Storm of swords: Blood and Gold by George R. R. Martin
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I'm reading Come to the Edge by Joanna Kavenna. I picked it up at random and it's not that bad.
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Day 2 Spent all day wondering/ dreading a text from him. I feel really guilty not answering not that I can now. I need to stand up for myself that's what everyone tells me even if I quite don't believe it myself. Today's going to be busy I'm a bit nervous to be honest I'm glad I took those sleeping tablets.
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Day 1 again He text me to see why I'd blocked him on Facebook, I stupidly text back saying it was for the best. He then text back saying I'd made things worse I didn't reply in fact I deleted it. I don't have his number so I can't be tempted to reply now. I spoke to friend and started a thread on ena about it I was quite panicked they both told me to ignore it and my friend td me why I shouldn't go back to him. I know I shouldn't but it makes it easier when someone reminds you why, she's an amazing friend.
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Day 9 Not used to feeling this lonely, haven't felt like this in a while, ended up thinking about all the times I didn't stand up for myself and was imagining myself doing so. It's a little to late now guess ill just have to do it in my next relationship. Iif I ever meet anyone.
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Day 8 Was neither sad nor happy yesterday, can't really go out because of the snow. Been trying to keep myself busy though. Been dreaming of myself actually standing up to him, doubt it'll actually happen now, the thought of never seeing him again is odd.
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Day 7 Had a miserable morning, but then I had kind of a epiphany. I'm 21. I might be shy but I'm always complaining that I don't have many friends, though the ones I do have are the best. I need to get out there! After realising this I felt the need to contact my ex fade a bit. I think I know realise that I wanted the relationship back not him. I'm kind of psyched to meet new people now though I know it might be hard since I'm naturally shy, and I might make mistakes, I'm going to give my all. I just hope I carry on feeling like this and don't wake up tomorrow having changed my mind.
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Day 6 I'm so tired, I really don't want to go to work, I'm going to be on my own all day. I played games with my friend last night it's the only thing that takes my mind off him. I'm starting to forget things about him, I stupidly started reminding myself of them, luckily I fell asleep before I could go to far. It seems less like I miss him now and more like I miss the intimacy, getting texts every day and hugs and kisses. I'm scared the next guy I meet won't want all that. The thought of dating scares me as we'll, I knew my ex liked me from school, I wish it could be as easy next time but I doubt it will be, I don't even no how to get dates.
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Day 5 Another dream this time I fell over in front of him and he and his friend laughed at me, I know it was only a dream but it still hurts. Went to get my hair cut to make me feel better but the girl kept talking about her boyfriend and her sisters baby, ended in tears a few hours later in work. Spent the evening gaming with my friend really cheered me up guess at this point there's no need to be to productive. Thanks Noila for the post, though I'd rather enter a new relationship than hook up.
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Day 4 Damn dream hard to concentrate all day. The evening was better played an online game with my friend, took my mind off things. I'm getting my hair done today and a bit of shopping, just a half day of work,my hen off to karate. Slept well but woke up early.
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Day 3 Dreamt about him last night, we bumped into each other and he ended up asking me out to dinner though a child was coming with us to, the dream didn't really make sense and he wasn't ink a lot of it, but still not a great way to wake up. I took a sleeping tablet last night got woken up in the middle of the night but other than that best sleep in ages. Yesterday I kept my mind on moving on I even told my friend at work about the break up, though I acted like I wasn't bothered, it somehow made it more final.
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Day 2 after crying all morning my Mum reminded me of why I'm better off without him. I decided to pick myself up. I played games and skyped my friend some thing I haven't done in ages, it helped. Been trying to visualise myself with other guys, it doesn't sound as impossible as it used to. I haven't had much sleep but today is quite busy so hopefully I should be ok, and sleep better tonight, if not at least I've took Wednesday morning off to get my hair cut.
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Day 1 Feel numb a year ago we were telling each other that we loved each other for the first time. I think it doesn't help that we were in the honeymoon period this time last year so I have a lot of great memories or things we did about this time. I broke down last after getting drunk and practically begged him back he didn't reply and now I fell stupid I'm not sure whether to block him on Facebook again either because of the message that sends. I'm just going to have to accept this as a bad day and hope tomorrow's better I guess.