It's like I still love u after everything that's happened and all this time has passed so how can u lose feelings for me. In a week. U didn't. u just got swept away by He's charm that's all. If I ever see him I donno what the hell im gonna do to him. he ruined our relationship. Like u felt more for me when u was 17 then u do now. That's actually mental after we've been together for 5years and how close we were. I just don't understand Nothing makes sense. How can u not feel nothing for me when I was ur first man and first proper relationship. I've never heard anything like it. I just pray to god u did actually love me and u weren't using me all these years. The only other thing I can think of is that u want someone with better looks and more money or u wanna sleep around. I'm never gonna know. It's the biggest thing that's happened to me all this I can go on and on forever coz I've been racking my brains out the last 6months. I donno what to believe coz uve changed the story so many times. When we first split up u wanted to b alone that weren't true u said a few weeks back ur not ready for a relationship then ur on dating sites saying ur a genuine girl lol. U said u to Him u weren't happy with me but u was happy on the Sunday looking at weddings. 2weeks before u was buying stuff from Alton garden centre for our house why would u so that if u weren't happy!! None of ur stories make sense I am so confused by u becky and u say ur genuine. I used to call u that. this is why im like how I am after the lies and confusion and then u wanting to try again. I can move on I was doing it before and I will again I'm just annoyed at the age of 26 all my friends have moved out had kids and getting on with there lives and I wait for u all them years and I have nothing to show for it. I gotta start again coz u won't Evan try and give us a chance. I was so looking forward to moving out with u and having kids and the future. That was all I wanted in my life that was my dreams. it was urs as well remember! I will never understand how u can't care about me and feel anything at all after everything we've been through I just don't believe it. I mean I'm saying all of this to u and u just say dont contact me. It's like u want me when I don't want u then when I do want u u don't want me. It's like a crazy game ur playing. It hurts I was the most important person in ur life and now u dont wanna know me and I'm just a nobody to u now. U was cold and horrible towards me though a few months back then a few weeks ago it was "hey how u feeling so u can be nice when it suits u. U feel something for me when it suits u. It doesn't matter how much has happened it could have been sorted out between us. im angry upset completely in shock by everything that's happened but I would still give u another chance. Why would I wanna try again after everything u put me through. Coz I love u. I love u. and the feelings thing is an excuse it does not happen without a reason coz I didn't change or hurt u. If it was true about feelings I never wanna b with anyone again coz it must be me I can't be with someone then they lose feelings again Il never trust another woman when they say I love u u mean the world to me. Il be like yea right heard that all before from my ex. Or if its u then u will never be happy coz u will lose feelings when ur in long term relationships. That's why the feelings thing can't b true. I don't know what it is. I'm never gonna know why I had a perfect 5years with u and u won't try again.
1 Mistake with Him caused this and that's enough for u to give up. Was i really not worth more then that. Am i that bad am i that low to u. Am I not worth fighting for. Am I not good enough. It's something I have to live with now. I can't believe this is what u want but I have no choice.
No need to change ur number coz it comes up as an email address remember. Thanks for giving up on me.
Il always remember when u moaned saying u love me more then I love u.