I've been in a serious (living together) relationship for almost 2 years. My boyfriend is loving, understanding, caring - everything that I could have hoped for. I love him deeply and the thought of being without him destroys me. We have a wonderful life together and our future looks even brighter. All my friends love him and say how lucky I am, and I am VERY lucky...I know all this...
The problem is this other guy "Jack". Before my current relationship, Jack and I have a hot and heavy love affair for 5 years. Jack is one of those very attractive sought after single guy. He can charm anyone and can blend with any group of people...very dynamic and that is how I fell. He was sometimes in a relationship or I was sometimes in a relationship...we somehow always ended up back in bed together...I don't think we went more than a few days without seeing each other despite whatever else was going on. Despite all this, we never got into a relationship of the conventional committed sense. Too many trust issues and arguments, but throughout all those years our passion for each other never died and it only got stronger. I realized years ago that we had no future and finally walked away. It was a drastic move that involved a change of job, address and phone number to avoid him creeping back into my life.
The problem is that not one day goes by where I haven't thought about him. I thought it would pass but two years later, I can't shake him. To make it worse, we now have mutual friends again. The first time I saw him was at a Christmas party and I bolted. I faked sick, so my boyfriend has no idea. Now, we will be attending the same wedding next weekend and my boyfriend can't come. I'm terrified. I honestly don't know if I can resist him...and I know he has been asking about me.
Help! How do I get this guy out of my mind??? Why am I still thinking about him?? We were never in love! It was lust and I realize that, so why then??? I don't understand and it's killing me....
