Mike H

So im being told that you seem down in the dumps since breaking up with me. How am i supposed to react to this? It has crossed my mind that it may not be me that your upset about, and that it could be other issues in your life which are getting you down. We both had problems at the time but you knew that i would have been there for you no matter what, unlike all the other waste of space boyfriends you have had. Why couldnt you have been there for me too? We could have stuck by each other through the bad times like any committed couple would do. Instead you dump me at the worst possible time and make my problems escalate. I was doing well until i heard this information. As i still care for you deeply it makes me feel like i SHOULD contact you, but then again why should i risk causing more pain for myself?

So, almost at the end of week 3. Seems like 3 months to me.. Id like to congratulate you on being so happy hanging around other guys (NOT) while im still picking up pieces of my heart from when you stomped all over it. I know you didnt mean to hurt me, but you did, and at the worst time possible too. I feel like you never gave me a chance, and if you had done things might have turned out differently. When you left, you took a part of me with you and unfortunately it's not something i can ask you to give back. I wish i knew what you wanted out of a relationship. Not so i could try and change myself to your liking, but so i could understand what it is that made you decide we werent meant to be together. In my eyes things couldnt have been better and you came accross as being very happy. In fact you told me so and wanted to be with me as much as you could. I hope you realize what you have thrown away. You said it yourself, you have been mistreated/under-appreciated in the past and then you found someone who would have always treat you like a princess and it's still not enough.

So im in work today and realize that next to nobody knows we arent together any more. Im kind of glad you havnt went and told everybody, but at the same time it makes things worse for me as people still come up and talk about 'us' as if we are still seeing each other. Hearing your name makes my heart skip a beat, then i get an odd feeling in my stomach, a bit like butterflies but more of a sickly version. Im looking for another job anyway, but since the BU i find it damn near impossible to work there without thinking of you all the time. We shared our first decent conversation there, our first kiss, you asked me out whilst working etc.. A bad start to 2013 all round. Wish things had happened differently.. Im over the worst now i hope, but please dont contact me in the future asking for us to try again. You hurt me in a way i didnt think was possible. As much as i miss you, i couldnt take being with you again and for you then to decide its not going to work down the line.

Yet again i dreamt about you last night. And when i woke up i swear i could still smell your perfume on my bedsheets, even though they have been changed a number of times since you left me. I still think of you every minute of the day and your face, as well as your facebook pics, are imprinted on my mind. I sometimes wish that we had never got together in the first place.. Why were you so quick to call things a relationship, tell me your happy and then dump me out of the blue? I miss you so much.