shadow_angel

i'm sick of eveybody telling me to believe..to HOPE!i'm beginning to hate this word.for me hope=autodestruction .every time i dream of something everything falls appart.life would be so much better without hope,without any aspectations.it's nice to live in a fantasy world but the awakening to reality is cruel.i can't stand it anymore.i'm at the end of everything.i wish i could just forget my feelins.but hey...what you wish will never come tue.i felt i needed to write this.my best friend is out of town and i must talk to someone.welll...i could call her but it's 4:00 am.

well it is easy te write on the forum because here nobody knows me. i don't really believe in god but thanks anyway! 8-[ yea...it means a lot to me that so many people care.

i think that after your ex boyriend broke up with you,you want to prove yourself that you can still seduce a boy.that's way you want him to call you and to give you attention.and you want to make out with him because you want to show your ex you can find another boyfriend.but matt is not the right one. but this is just my opinion.

where was this high school sweetheart when you got merried?weren't you thinking at her back then?why did you broke up in high school?are you happy in you marriage?what do you feel for your wife?what do you think that the relationship with your child will be like if you get divorce?is your sweetheart willing to divorce too?to many questions?sorry for that.think about the answers.and if you consider that your happiness is with your sweetheart then do what you have to do to be with her.maybe it sounds selfish but you otherwise you will think for the rest of your life at her and at what could have been.

all this is so hard.why do i have to handle with something like that?i meet him today and i don't know what i'm going to tell him.i feel overwhelmed.i'm surprized that peopel here are so nice.thanks...

hello joanne. sorry to hear about the father of your child.you sure understand me.it was painful for you but you had a reason to go on CHILD!that man gave you an invaluable gift.he is dead but a part of him lives in his child. you say i should talk to his family and friends.i know i should do that,but i promised him not to talk to anyone.he said he trusted me and i must not betray him cause he will hate me forever.dose it sound stupid what i say?i don't wanna see him suffer anymore and maybe death is the only solution for him.i'm so lost. and there is something you don't know.he wants to hill himelf with sleepingpills and some of them are from me.jesus.what kind of person am i ? you suggest to call the police.well,i'm from romania and here we don't have help centers or something. i made a mistake.i logged on with trixie ... everyone knows this is my nickname.if he dies and someone i know reads this that someone will know that i knew.i will be even more hated.i don't know the law...maybe i could even go to jail...hell knows.i have my own pills.if i can't stand the situation i will "break free".

hi daredevil. wow...i'm impressed.you wrote a lot...does this mean you really care? why i feel bad?it's something insede me and i can't control it.i hate it.i feel scared and i don't know why.i can't sleep,i cry.but now i'm not talking about me... i told michel that many people will suffer if he kills himself.his mother,his brother,his sister will be downhearted.and his friends will feel quilty for not spending enough time with him.you said he should listen to glad music...music is a big problem for him.he listens sad music which just makes him feel down. you say you don't understand the wish to die.i had suicidal thoughts since i was 14.but in the last mounths things were worse than ever.jesus,i talk about me again.i will start "me topic" soon because i sure need help too.back to michael...i will do my best to convince him al least to postpone.to give me some time to show him that people need him.he sais he is useless.he is in the 12 form but he dosen't go to school he will probably be kicked out. i have one day to find the solution.but i tell him about getting better while i'm down.today he told that first i must follow my own advices and leave him alone.he said that i can try to save him but it is mission imposible.dosen't that mean he wants to be saved??? some people would say that all the messeges post here are cause a depressed person dosen't stay in front of the computer and dosen't write about it's feelings.everyone who visits this forum looks for help.once you are here you want to be saved.i want that.i admit.

hello! i found out about this site from a friend i took a tour and i think it's really cool.i'm here cause i need advice.i need help for me but now more important is a friend of mine in need.i'm going to call him michael.for privacy. two mounths ago i left home and went in another town together with michael.we had in mind to kill ourselfs.which we tried but we survived.we swallowed 15 sleepingpills,which were not enough.i regret that we failed but i also think that there must be a reason we come back.time passed,i talked with a mob of psychiatrists but it was in vain.i don't feel good eighter but my concern is michael.he is really down.i don't know what to do to help him.we meet the day after tomorrow.he told me that it is my last chance to make him change his mind.what should i tell him???maybe someone around here will have the saving idea. you probably want to know why does he want to make this step.he is feeling bad...alone...he founds no reason to live.he said that nothing makes him happy anymore.his family loves him,he has friends to party...but he is still down.and i understand him because i am in the same situation. i don't wanna lose him.i don't know if i can to pass through his death. i read on this forum the stories of many people with the same problems.i feel sad that there are many persons who suffer out there.i know how it is to have a depression.it is FRIGHTFULLY! hope to receive some answers.