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Johnny Utah

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Johnny Utah last won the day on December 30 2013

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  1. I didn't deserve the ignore and fade away. I could have handled one last night together or a final call. I accepted things were over because it's what she wanted. I wasn't going to go against her wishes. She made it worse by inviting me for one night and then ignoring me. The break up was largely amicable before that. This didn't have to happen and I am sure it wasn't her intention to. Her invitation, she had the best of intentions. I deserved more than that. Not because of the Christmas gift, but because I always treated her well. She could have done that much for me but for whatever reason, couldn't. That's why it hurt more than the break up. Because it gave me more anxiety and caused me to feel worthless. That it mattered more to her to end things rather than making me feel better, even though I didn't show any signs of not accepting the break up. I have let go of the anger again. But why do I want to contact her still? I left the voicemail ending things. I won't ever do again. I said that I was disappointed and anxious for not knowing. That I deserved better and that perhaps we shouldn't contact each other. This was the second time I said this. The first was through a text. And now I still want to break NC. Sent from my iPhone using link removed
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