I still love you like crazy, and i can't stop thinking about you, i so want us back together starting fresh and new.
I remember when you said you missed me, that my presence still gave you goosebumps, and that maybe in the future we could be together again.
BUt the truth is, you're with someone else who's much better than me in all the aspects i failed at, you're probably happy with the new direction of your life, and are just thinking about me as a failed relationship and not so much as the love of your life.
Contacting you will only push you away even further, and i don't want to hear your "conforting" words about how you love me but "in a different way"; those words are not yours, they were given to you by your "friends" who as soon as you left, started inviting you EVERY week to present you with single guy friends of theirs, even tho before we'd only see them once every 6 months.
I'll keep my pain to myself, so you do not see the pathetic creature i currently am; i know its futile to hope for us to get back together, but it's not a thought that i can control.