Jump to content

Juliette ne pas

Silver Member
  • Posts

    385
  • Joined

  • Days Won

    1

Juliette ne pas last won the day on August 6 2012

Juliette ne pas had the most liked content!

Juliette ne pas's Achievements

Enthusiast

Enthusiast (6/14)

  • First Post
  • Collaborator
  • Conversation Starter
  • Week One Done
  • One Month Later

Recent Badges

13

Reputation

  1. Your still playing mind games, trying to string me along....well mister I've got your number. I found out some things about you, you've been unfaithful the majority of our marriage and there are people who are willing to make statements about this, you scumbag...in our driveway while I and our children were sleeping, nice. Pressing yourself up against my girlfriend at her husband's party with me just in the other room...well sometimes the past just comes back to bite you...you filed for divorce , stopped wearing your wedding band months ago which our children Noticed, you tell me no to reconcilation, and now your dragging your feet...... no sir!!!!!! We are done, you have dishonored and disrespected me on every level while my children were watching and I was to blinded by fear and what I thought was love to stand up for myself... No mas!!!!!! No mas!!!!!!!!!
  2. Funny, you think you can still control me, but I am getting stronger, I will find away to get back on my feet, I will not feel guilty anymore for not being able to please you. You are impossible to please, your are irrational and a bully. Why don't you crawl back under whatever rock you came out from under, you foul beast.
  3. it hurts to see our family pictures and know for the rest of my life I am going to have to put up with you for the sake of the kids. that stinketh! I just want to make it that you mean absolutely nothing to me, so that I'm not hurt or jealous, I will be indifferent toward you.
  4. I hope you know what you are doing, I hope it's worth it to you. For you never know how much damage you caused by your actions, how many people, you say you love that you are hurting. If you don't wish to be with me....I've got it, but why drag in everyone else, why our children? Is nothing sacred to you? I am not going to roll over and play dead. I have only begun to awaken.
  5. I feel as if I'm in the eye of the storm, the winds circling at seemingly terminal velocity. Objects coming out of no where seem to coming directly at me, only to be held back by an unseen force. Yet, emotionally these things are leaving me traumatized.I feel I have no control of anything, I can only stand back and watch as things and people collide. I cry out warnings but I can't be seen or heard above the winds. What happened to cause this, why have things hurtled completely out of control, when did I lose control. All I wanted was to protect my own, to protect myself, to speak the truth, to defend myself, and all heck broke loose. No one believes me, I don't know if I believe myself anymore. Things are to cloudy, I can't think straight, did it happen or is it a figment of my imagination. My children say it did, I vaguely remember the situation. I if I stick with what I believe to be true, then the effects on myself and my children will be catastrophic. I am damned if I do damned if I don't. No matter what I am reaping the whirlwind.
  6. Very eloquent my friend...I imagined walking on a old cobblestone road in a small village and down the lane... just as I did as a little girl, with the wind causing the leaves to swirl and play at my feet. Yes. your right it is a time when you could feel the warmth and the love in air...it practically hummed and sang as it lulled and gently prepared us for the cool crisp mantle of winter... Yes nature does show the love and majesty of the King...Thank you for reminding me of this...especially right now, I needed this encouragement...thank you from an old American.
  7. Was denkst du da? Wahrum der Rozel Weiss? Es ist meine Name und gibt mir hoffen fuer der Future, fuer mich und alle meine Famillia. Der Rozel Weiss, den Belije Rozl, it grows in the dryest, most arid places, between a rock and a hard place, it stands strong in the face of adversity, yet its not alone, it raises it's face to the sun, it powerful rays drying and draining the dessert rose...yet still expectant, holding on to hope, the rose waits. It waits for the time of refreshing, for the life giving rains. Why do I write so, what is the driving force, life and heartbreak.... I feel like a pendulum, each swing(my actions) bringing me through great emotional highs and lows, I wish I wouldn't allow my emotions to rule me, I wish I was in control of them instead of them me... The past still has power over me, it still causes me pain, so much so that it has crippled me emotionally...I am worn and weary, sad and feeling alone, my heart breaks within me, my words fail me... all that can escape my mouth are inarticulate words and screams of pain. All the fears and pain of the past and the present, crushed and pressed together with no where to go, there were no pressure valves, or warning signs to signal the imminent melt down that was about to occur, no emergency evacuations, nothing.... Nothing... then there was a small spark, almost like that of a cigarette carelessly tossed to the ground without regard to the situation or the possible outcome....it takes less than thirty minutes and that small spark has evolved into a huge firestorm ingulfing all in its path, it is out of control and no one is left untouched by this. The start? the past was revisited and the sad statement was issue that there was no change in the individual since childhood, no progress, the child was selfish, uncaring, mentally inept, a fool, always in trouble, a bother, a hinderance,incapable, or unwilling to change, not worth the time or effort needed to rehabilitate such an ungrateful creature, it's barmy, do lally tap, mental, belongs in a home, a institution, and all these things still ring true with the adult. So the visit the cost not only time and energy which were in short supply, but money as well, money that was diverted from other places so the trip could be made. In truth the adult/child should have never have made the trip, as the individual was not yet fully recovered from surgery, and was still in phsyically and emotionally weakened state. Reason for undertaking the ill fated trip was to see and spend time with family... who view me as nothing more than an errational, illogical child, who still needs their hand held and to be controlled. I put them out by being there, I think the world should revolve around me, silly fool. It cost me well over $4,000 to travel over 5000 miles in a car to realize I can't change how other people see me, I have and always be nothing more than in ill tempered, ungrateful, selfish fool.... and that they can tell me that and I should just swallow my pride and except it. All these years we've traveled to see them, we swallowed the cost, because it was family and family is important, it took us months to recover financially, it really put a strain on my marriage...but it was family, they couldn't travel here so we went there. Always felt like we were a burden...funny it took 2 days to drive there 2 days back, hotels, food, gas, snacks, and time for 5-6 people... Funny there is so much more to this than will ever be know but, I feel terrible for exploding and screaming at my sister(who started all this), and my parents (who still judge me for things in the past and always side with my sister)...I know I proved them right again, I am a good as dead to them, funny part of my doesn't mind, I am ashamed of the way I couldn't control my emotional outburst, but not why I exploded. I felt like a cornered wounded animal, I had never meant to be ugly to anyone, all the hurtful things that were said to me, I tried not to respond, but they just kept building up...my issue was originally by my sister, but when my parents sided with her without knowing what happened or the emotions behind it, all heck broke loose, my parents chose to more close to my sister, this was her plan, and it was also part of her plan that when my husband gets out of the military, that we are to sell our house, cut our ties to everything, and hope to find work in the state she lives in so we can move closer her and my parents. In the past I would have liked to, but it isn't practical, so every year we tried to visit my family twice, a major drain on the finances, we never do familly trips with just my children, no we travel to see my sister and family. We don't do special things, like go out for anniversaries, no we save that money to visit family....yup I am selfish... No matter, I don't have to worry about this anymore , I'm dead to them...
  8. Ich habe keine anung....aber machst du was du musst. Liebe, Rosel
  9. In Honour of Rememberance Day Big Country
  10. Do you know why the caged bird sings? Its song sweet yet mournful. Why does it not try to escape when released and instead returns to its cage. Is it chained by fear of harm or the unknown, it will not say. It sits behind bars in a space too small for it to spread it's wings and fly. What has it done to be treated so cruely? Has it commited a crime, or is it for the pleasure of mankind? Do you know why the caged bird sings so sweetly? It sings to remind itself of days gone by and for the hope of tomorrow. That's why the caged bird sings, sings so sweetly. "High Flight" Oh! I have slipped the surly bonds of Earth And danced the skies on laughter-silvered wings; Sunward I’ve climbed, and joined the tumbling mirth of sun-split clouds, — and done a hundred things You have not dreamed of — wheeled and soared and swung High in the sunlit silence. Hov’ring there, I’ve chased the shouting wind along, and flung My eager craft through footless halls of air.... Up, up the long, delirious, burning blue I’ve topped the wind-swept heights with easy grace. Where never lark, or even eagle flew — And, while with silent lifting mind I have trod The high untrespassed sanctity of space, - Put out my hand, and touched the face of God. [h=3]John Gillespie Magee, Jr. (9 June 1922 – 11 December 1941)[/h]It was because of this poem I have such a love of flying...
  11. No they are not...but are we as individuals doing as much as we can? I thank you for you post my friend....know maybe you can see why I'm a little off base and why I value your comments
  12. I was informed the youtube link isn't working..the song is my immortal... another is TAPS here are the words that are associated with the song Day is done, gone the sun, From the lake, from the hill, From the sky. All is well, safely rest, God is nigh.Thanks and praise, For our days, ’Neath the sun, ’Neath the stars, ’Neath the sky, As we go, This we know, God is nigh.Fades the light; And afar Goeth day, And the stars Shineth bright, Fare thee well; Day has gone, Night is on.Go to sleep, peaceful sleep, May the soldier or sailor, God keep. On the land or the deep, Safe in sleep.Love, good night, Must thou go, When the day, And the night Need thee so? All is well. Speedeth all To their rest.
  13. I bow my head to honour all our fallen soldiers both the US and her allies in all the conflicts past and present. Yet, this is my list of my buddies, people I trained with, or who trained me, people I served with or knew personally. Each one of these men were an integral part of my life and some the life of my family, some more than others, but all equally as important. They are ALL missed. ROLL CALL SFC Greg Frontius (good friend) 7 th SFG(A) 02 April 87 SSG Douglas Hunter (family) 82 nd (A) 01 July 87 Helo crash 12 Marsh 89 3rd/ 5th SFG (A) Cpt. Brown SSG Campbell * SGT Larry Endress SFC Evans SSG Griswold *SGT Terry Holloway… best friend medic *SSG Kevin Livengood…friend medic *SFC George Wayne…good friend medic *Col. Nick Rowe…mentor/father figure CW2 Stanley Harriman (family) 3rd SFG(A) 2 March 2002 OEF SSG Orlando Morales 7th SFG(A) 29 March 2003 OEF SFC William M. Bennett (good friend, medic) 5th SFG(A) 12 September 2003 OIF MSG Kevin N. Morehead (good friend medic) 5th SFG(A) 12 September 2003 OIF SSG Paul A. Sweeney 3rd SFG(A) 30 October 2003 OEF SGM Michael B. Stack (one of my instructors…great guy) 5th SFG(A) 11 April 2004 OIF SFC Pedro A. Munoz (good man, great role model) 7th SFG(A) 2 January 2005 OEF MSG Anthony R.C. Yost (great leader) 3rd SFG(A) 19 November 2005 OEF SSG Leroy E. Alexander 7th SFG(A) 3 June 2005 OEF MSG Thomas D. Maholic (a practical joker and a great friend) 7th SFG(A) 24 June 2006 OEF SSG Michael D. Thomas (good friend) 7th SFG(A) 27 April 2007 OEF SGT Timothy P. Padgett 7th SFG(A) 8 May 2007 OEF MSG Arthur L. Lilley (my favorite redhead, we all loved him, especially my children) 7th SFG(A) 15 June 2007 OEF SFC David Nunez (good man) 7th SFG(A) 29 May 2008 OEF MSG Mitchell W. Young 7th SFG(A) 13 July 2008 OEF SFC Jeffrey Rada Morales (a great medic) 7th SFG(A) 29 June 2008 OEF MSG Shawn E. Simmons 7th SFG(A) SGT James M. Treber 7th SFG(A) 29 June 2008 OEF CPT Richard G. Cliff 7th SFG(A) 29 September 2008 OEF SFC Jamie S. Nicholas 7th SFG(A) 29 September 2008 OEF SFC Gary J. Vasquez 7th SFG(A) 29 September 2008 OEF SFC Bradley S. Bohle( he was the best, his daughter is five now…cute as can be…she and Brad’s Mom helped me to lay memorial wreaths at the graves) 7th SFG(A) 16 September 2009 OEF SSG Joshua R. Townsend 7th SFG(A) 16 January 2009 OEF SFC Shawn P. McCloskey (good man) 7th SFG(A) 16 September 2009 OEF SSG Joshua M. Mills (medic) 7th SFG(A) 16 September 2009 OEF Yes there are more who died in 2010-to present and they should be honoured as well…. I just didn’t know anyone personally who was active duty.
×
×
  • Create New...