To love myself - that`s what I want badly, too. For a long time. Why things haven`t improved as much as I want them, I`m not sure. Perhaps I`m just lazy, but, in fact, I also don`t know how.
...But there are some things that I feel could work... I`m planning to do them when I have time/energy. Nothing determined, but the idea in general: to calm down and, in your thoughts and feelings, fill yourself with the good energy/light/warmness/peace/love... (or what sounds or feels good for you ). Make yourself feel calm, powerful and full of light. Because that`s how the self-loving people feel, they`re sparkling from inside.
...Unlike us, those who often feel empty, unsafe and/or dirty inside.
That`s the miracle of self-love - people who do so are VERY attractive, no matter what their looks are. That`s my observations.
Good luck, Cloud! (And sorry for my English, for it`s not my native language)
