leah_mac

i know i should stay.. but if my parents gave me like 300 a month or maybe less.. and i had a job where'd i get 400 a month and an aparment would only cist 375 a month,.. and thats everything included.. and i would still go to school.. cuz i can juts get the bus.. in the end id end up having extra money for food and stuff too.. do you think if i told someone how much i thought about it and worked everthing out they'd change.. i just reallly need to get out of here.. all my parents do is bring me down.. and i just can't take it anymore.. ive tried to kill myslef because i hate it here so much.. and i cant even do that.. i just cant do anything anymore.. and my grades are dropping like crazy beacsue im stupid and always crying cuz my parents are drunk or screaming at me.. i thik im ready to move out thoe.. i can give myself a better life than what my parents are giving me

last year i went to the consuler about everyhting and child services got involed.. it was a mess and tore our family apart.. i have my own consuler now.. only because im not aloud to be in school without one.. the school thinks i inflict cutting and encourage others to do it.. which i promise i dont.. that would be a sick thing to do.. but i cut because of my home.. ive had 5 consulers now..and none of them have gotten me outta the house.. they think its just me and are putting me on anti-depressants. So this is what ive tried so far.. is there something im not doing? or am i over reacting? *leah_mac*

the reason i want to move out is because there is abuse in the house.. my older sister had a place to go when she wanted to move out.. she went with my grandparents but they love below me now.. my aunt takes me in a lot.. but i dont want her to have to do that anymore.. she has her own kid and they have problems and they don't need mine.. so if i had my own place i wouldnt have to go to her place when my parents were drinking or whatever. I dont mean to be ungreatful or anything but ive had enough of my parents and have given them many chances, but my dad keeps hitting me and my mom keeps drinking.. im sorry for anyone who thought i was being selfsih er w/e i should ahve explained the situation better *leah_mac*

Hi, I am 15 and as all teenagers I hate where I live. I was wondering if I wanted to move out when i was 16, would my parents have to give me money every month? And I'd have to get their permission, right? Someone please write me back with these answers=) *leah_mac*

awsome poem!..im sorry about your realitionship too=( get well soon!

i reallyyyy like it.. it is depressing... but i like those type of poems.. they actually help me.. to know that other people feel the way i do.. anyways .. i love it=D

hmm it took me a sec to get it too.. but after i got it i relized what it meant and stuff.. its really good.. awsome job=)

woWw thatS reaLly gooD.. iF thaTs whaT youR feeLinG noWw.. i nO whaT youR going througH..anywayS gOod jOb..

thatS preTty gooD i muSt sayY!! gooD joB anD kEep wrItinGg!=)

yes i feel that way.. like i want revenge.. but no matter what you do its not going to make them come back.. and theres no reason to make him feel bad about it.. i mean theres pricks out there and we should be strong and take them.. one by one.. thats makes us stonger.. and gains more respect from guys.. cuz they see that.. and we cant get revenge on every guy thaty made us sad.. or heart broken.. two wrongs dont make a right.. i hate to say that but its true

thanx alot.. im gunna start takin self defense classes too=).. well im tellin child services there comin to my house in about a week

well i think i can move in with my sister but she doesnt have much money.. so i dont know how she would support me.. plus her b/f is there and he doesnt even have a job.. do my parents have to give me money cause im so young?.. and i have told childrens aid and childrens services my principals and my gudaince counciler.. i think they think i do it for attention.. so i need to approach this in a way so it makes it look like i really need it.. and going to childrens services well i dont know.. i just dont want to do this whole thing wrong.. cuz if my dad found out i went back to child's services and they told me to go home or something.. im sacred of what he'd do or even my mom.. and i cant live with my grandparents because they live with me.. and my aunt lives close by me.. although she doesnt have much money either and she has a daughter my age.. and all my other relitives are at least a 3 hour drive.. i just wanna know if i should go back to childrens aid?.. would it look like im only doing it for attention?..thanx for the advice up above=)

all my life i have been having trouble with my dad.. he used to beat me and my sister until we were almost unconcoius..and when my sister finally moved out i got the full blow of it.. my mom was always too drunk to do anything.. or if she did try to help he would threaten to hit her.. and everytime it happened my mom would come in my room and tell me it would get better.. she said that when i was 3,4,5,6,7,8,9,10.11.12.13 and finally i realized i didnt have to take it.. i thought i was soo stupid for always beliving her.. but i just couldnt handel it anymore.. so i threated my dad i would call childrens aid if he laid one more finger on me.. hes still throws things at me or throes me up aginst walls but never actually hits me.. but the other day my mom said that if i didnt lose the attitude that she would hit me herself and if my father was there would tell him to do it... and that was about 3 days ago.. i think there tired of having me in the house.. cuz im deprssed and cut and smoke and lots of stuff.. i went to my gudaince couincler about it at school.. so now childrens aid is involed... but my mom warned me to tell them everything was fine or id be sorry.. i have talked to my parents about the way i feel countless times.. could someone please give me advice on what to do without causing the rest of my family too much greif.. and o yeah my dad was at anger management.. and it didnt work so thats no good.. anyways id appricate anything..please write me something.. byes

wow u are a real inspiration thats awsome your going back and cleaning up your life feel good with yourself.. and im gunna give that book a go.. thanx fer telling ppl that feeling good about your self in the inside is eventually going to happen=)

well i do give them sugesstions.. its almost like they want to have problems.. but its bad for me cuz i deal with other ppl before me.. like i cant be okay and not depressed when my friends are too.. i even went to a shrink for it.. and she couldnt get thru to me.. but then i dont no how to tell them how i feel.. cuz about.. 11 of them are like this..and all talk to me.. thanx for the idea tho