cait

Thank you everyone who took the time to reply to my post. I guess i can fill ya'll in on what happened. Today was the first full day I've gone so far without talking to him once. It was pretty tough, beings we share lots of friends and it was awkward. I'm not looking forward to this weekend, beings I'll probably be home, since I spent most my time with him, and our friends. I think I must be in the denial stage right now, because its logical to me that while he is with his friend and his girlfriend, he'll feel a little...I don't know, incomplete or something? I hope this isn't me being conceited thinking that I'm the only one he can have. It still makes me sad, and I guess it goes to show that you shouldn't date your friends. Upndowngirl, although your post seemed to cause some controversy, I believe that yours has reached me the best. It is so true that there are plenty of guys around, and beings this is my first year of high school, it techincally is a practice, unless I plan on getting married by the time I'm a Sophmore! Thanks to everyone....and as you all said, the pain is slowly- but surely going away, it'll just take time.

Although I knew for a fact it was coming, it hit me like a freight train. today after I got out of school, I was standing next to my car, talking to my friend, when my boyfriend came over and asked if he could talk to me. Since I had been warned that it was the end, I didn't wanna go over there, but I had to. I looked at him and asked if things were at an end..and sadly he said yes. We talked for a second and then simply said bye. It was so hard not to cry, but I held out until I got back over by my friend. We had been going out for about 2 1/2 months, and I thought things were going well despite the small fight we had the day after New Years. After we got that sorted out, we got in another fight about me "flipping out" on me. The last couple days have been hell and he couldn't even admit that he was mad at me and lied saying that we were fine. Is there something else I did wrong besides allegedly flipping out on him, which I thought was simply being honest and talking to him about what was up. I know this sounds like an extremely juvinile realtionship and its just a big drama, but I have been home an hour and still haven't stopped crying. Please tell me how to deal with this break up while I'm around him at school (we share mostly all the same friends). And how to make the pain go away.