aquabubbles2001

Okay here is goes... I met this guys Ted online randomly a year ago. You can say we accidently bumped into each other on a rp game. Well we became more then friends (I noe a big mistake bieng to fast). Anyways we allways had our ups and downs. And He has allways been there for me through my troubles. Well anyways after 14 months of knowing but not seeing each other, he decided that we should just be friends (mainly because of the personal problems I have at home). Well it has been 2 months since our break up, and we have became friends. The thing is though I talk to him constantly.. more then my girlfriends, and he has been the only constant thing in my life. I think Im still in love with him.. but I dont want to say anything till I meet him in august (he said he might be coming to my state at the time and stop by in my city). But, right now I feel like a complete looser calling him all the time. I mean every time I call he has something to do or someone to hangout with. (He is the popular sorts). and there is me the chubby type who only had a very number of friends who are busy all summer. It makes me feel desperate. What should I do to seem like I actually have a life. please help.

first off how tall are you? I mean u must be a short if your overweight and ur only 115.. Im asking because im a 5'1 and Im a 135 and that is considered to be a moderately overweight.. so if your a 5'1 or even a 4'10 115 is fine..

that is nice of you to say that.. but I already called social service and all they did was tell my mom wat I said.. my mom just said I was a liar.. and they believed her..

I dont noe what to do I get bruises everywhere Now it has been escalated to bite marks and scare here and there.. There is bruises too, some blows on the head my back is so sore the way she kicks it everyday What can i do? No where to hide. she is my mom she said she tries She said she is holy and I am bad that i need a beaten every day cause i make her sad What can i do I called the cops all they did was called my pop And all he did was to say it was fine and now it gotten worse sigh sigh sigh What can I do? I dont care anymore I dont to my work I dont do my chores They both are mad now why should I care they will hit me no matter wat No matter how I care I love them both but I cant take too much this is destroying me but they dont care much I dont wanna do anything just wallow here and die but I know that is wrong and I know im too strong to say good bye So what can i do How can i endure to stay here any longer to be here for I have no place to stay I have no place to go my friends can never know and my family i a joke So ill rest for now till later Ill not care for the world Ill do what ever I like and say screw you to them both My scars enough my bruises are plenty My heart is starten to harden Which is really scary Im scared of what ill become Im scared of what will happen next I dont know what to do Can you give me some help? I tried to tell someone But it seemed they couldnt help Or they turned on me or went behind my back So here is the problem in a verse all to my own I just got beaten now blood on my clothes People say call someone I called all the places I could find and all they could do was tell everything to my mom Im feeling kind of tired and im gonna go to bed when i wake tomorrow I hope you will answer me I am a strong willed person or I wouldnt of lasted this long 12 years of the beatens has been way to long thank you for your help and you have been great and if u cant help me help someone else for there sake..

thank you for your advice

thank you for your advice I really appreciate it!

please help me with this dilemma

sorry that the topic is so long just wanted u guys to have a clear pic of wats going on?

Ok I have a best buddie she is like a sister to me.. I mean we've known each other for 4 years.. and I confide in her with everything.. She has allways been this tough girl who would allways stick up for her friends. Comfort her friends.. I mean she was allways for me and for our other good friends.. Well let me give u the names (fake names obviously) Diana - Best buddie Im talking about the "tough girl" Cherry - Sweet nice quiet girl like me "little sister" and Bon Bon - the gay girl who is also one of my closest friends. Well ok my friend Diana the tough girl I was talking about earlier just pulled a 360 on her personality just recently.. I mean she takes this "Its life deal with it approach" which is true is some sense.. But it has completely consumed her. Well first this biatch who does not like me follows diana all the time usually diana doesnt talk to her and stuff and talks to me.. but now she talks to her and when I asked her wats going on she says "oh well were not friends really" now she never likes the biatch.. for a long time.. but thats not the problem.. I personally dont care and it isnt my business which friends she has or not.. The problem occurred when the biatch insults me in public infront of my friends.. WHEN I WAS ABSOLUTELY NICE TO HER THE WHOLE ENTIRE WEEK.. so I didnt say anything to her at all aftert he insult I kind of brushed it off.. So I talked to my friend kel and I told her what happened and ofcourse I was venting to her.. and she couldnt support me or anything all she could say was "Well grow up and deal with the insults.. I mean seriously thats life.." and then I was completely flabbergasted.. well then I basically asked her "well what if she said something about ur b/f" well diana said "well I would defend my bf ofcourse" and then she continued to say she would defend my b/f aswell.. So then I asked her what about me and all she could say was "You can defend yourself.." So then that put a red flag on my defenses and made me not trust her much.. the second time was when my gay friend Bon Bon gotten aa phonecall from a guy calling her all sorts of names like fag and stuff tell her never to go near his friend (who was friends with Bon Bon) and everything..the next day Bon Bon was so upset about the whole entire thing.. so I comforted her and Cherry did the same thing.. I basically told Bon Bon that if he calls ever again just give me his number and Ill handle it myself.. So then we tell Diana what happened.. and all she can say was oh.. well that too bad.. and go on with her reading or what not.. The third and final time was when people were spreading rumours that Bon Bon and Cherry made out during there fre period in school.. which was not true cause i was WITH THEM THE WHOLE TIME.. So I explained that to everyone and the rumours died down.. but in Bon Bon's class they were stil humiliating her in public calling her names giving her glares and stuff cause they are immature frosh.. I comforted Bon Bon telling her just to ignore it and telling her that she has real friends.. While going to everyone and telling everyone that the rumour was not true.. When we went to Diana.. All diana would sya was.. "WEll why u have to make sure everyone noes its false? Its just a rumour.. just ignore it and it will go away" Even though tis true that it will go away.. it doesnt mean that it doesnt hurt now.. which what the art teacher told diana.. When me and Diana went to our volunteer site.. she asked me how was bon bon acting all caring and all.. which she should of been in school.. and then I told her and then at the end of out convo she says" What what do u expect when u tell people u are gay.. she'll just have to deal blah blah blah."I kind of zoned out after that I dont noe if I should confront her.. or not.. I mean how can I tell ehr she is changing.. what can I do.. should i just ignore it.. should i just accept her change.. I mean iM trying to accept it but I dont htink I can be close friends with her anymore if I do.. I am so confused... I dont wanna loose my bestfriend.. that is the last thing I wan happening.. please help me..

and the concern isnt wat they are accused of.. my concern is if the worst happens..

cause I wont be with them next year Ill be in college.. so they will need to be cared by someone else until I graduate and get a job!

please help me.. I def need some advice here..

Ok here's the deal.. My parents have been falsely accused by the govt, when the are COMPLETELY INNOCENT!!! And Im afraid that the worst mite come.. so pleae tell me how may I prepare living on my own and how to arrange my younger siblings care from people I trust that will help them.. Our child care agencies in my state sucks.. so I def dont trust them putting my siblings anywhere.. please help me.. I really dont have a firm grasp on this.. thank!

It must be so tough for u but please hang in there.. try getting her out more often and hanging out with a group of people.. Usually the rapisits do get of free so u cant do anything about that.. but u can certainly help her self-esteem

yeah i suppose ur righ.. but its not like I can do anything about it now.. oh well..