wlaney

Hi honey... I just wanted to tell you, Thank you for saving my life. I fought alcoholism so hard while with you. I couldnt stop. Ohhh, God I want to call you, email or write you a letter telling you. Its been 116 days since I've had my last drink. I owe it to you. You are an absolute blessing to anyone's path you cross. I love you so so much. Sweet dreams honey... I miss you. -Me

Dear God, please pass this message... R***a, ohhh Honey. I am so so sorry. I wronged you. I betrayed you. I lied to you. But I would give anything just to have that moment back where I would peek in the shower. You wouldnt see me, but you'd be laughing at yourself, dancing and singing. And I would laugh at you too. You looked so so cute. God I miss you. Honey..., if you could see me now. You would be so proud at how far I have come. You could say I am so so proud of my man. He has gone to hell and back with alcoholism. I will never let you down. I hurt because I miss you and I love you dearly. I hurt because of what I did. I was just so so sick. Not a bad person, just so sick. I could have asked you for money, you would probably would have given me $10 or $20. But I was too embarrassed and felt guilty knowing exactly what I was going to spend it on. Ohhh, honey I am so sorry. Dear Lord! I beg of you for forgiveness.

Hey honey..., remember that guy who would pick bloody boogers out of your nose after you had sinus surgery with tweezers? Remember that guy who you draw you a bath at night, light candles and set a glass of wine out for you with your favorite music? Remember that guy who would write "I love you notes" on the mirrors though out the house? Remember that guy who you would laugh with? Remember decorating the x-mas tree together. Remember you telling me that if it werent for me then you wouldnt have had a x-mas last year? Honey... that is me. I promise... that is me. I was wrong, so so wrong being so selfish. In ever sense of the word. I was wrong. Dear God, I beg for forgiveness. I never wanted to hurt you. At all ever. I want to make things right and leave it in God's hands. Honey, I was so wrong.

I miss you... Please forgive me. You said those things to me out of pure hate. "Im dating a real MAN now!" My God, R***a. Was that absolutely necessary?! I didnt ask to know. So now sometimes I cant get out of my head you being intimate with him. It kills me. I blame myself for everything. And I've changed completely. If you could only see me now. I AM that MAN that you said was driven, smart, sexy, thoughtful, kind. I am that MAN that you wanted to marry. I am SOBER and would never think of hurting you.Sadly I met a wonderful, beautiful woman yesterday at church. When she smiled it looked just like yours. I had to cut it short and leave. Hurting - xoxo's all over. Me