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im willing to accept what i have done in the past. now i fight hard to bring her back. i never liked her new bf, he always bad mouthed my name. i recently found out just how overcontrolling he is to he. he monitors her e-mails, her group of friends and who she can and cannot speak to. mainly me. shes on vacation right now and he is scanning her e-mail account and deleting all the messages i send to her. he is calling me a stalker and claims to want to kick my ass and kill me, just because i wished her a happy new year, have a safe flight home, and to tell her ill be on my way to san francisco for school. he said he knows whats best for her, and he'll be the only love in her life. he shuts her out from the world. i get angry just knowing shes letting him get away with it. i get angry knowing any girl lets a guy do that. hows my flower supposed to grow without sunlight.? hes blocks her off, and it makes me feel so sorry for her. maybe he does love me, she just cant say it, maybe she wants to be with me but is afraid he might physically harm her if she tries to leave. im up here in san. fran and im getting a bad rap back home. this doesnt feel good. i was willing to fight to make her stay, but now im fighting to save her from him. hes not a good character to be around. he claims he makes the decisions in her life. hes the only man in her life. and so on and so on. why does she put up with him? i mean iknow i was hard to live wih, being gone and involved with work, but i never once took control of her life or who she spoke to. i work so hard to get where im at, so i can buy her all the nice things. now shes not even here. when i get back im prepared to walk to her front door and tell her im still in love with her, and im prepared to take the beating from her boyfriend. im prepared to protect her at all cost. if he ask what will it take to go away, ill say a bullet to the chest...for that'll be the only way my heart will stop beating for her love. im prepared to live the rest of my life alone. right now, ill do anything to keep him away from her. hes not protecting her, hes blocking her off. away from the sun, the stars, and the oxygen she needs, so that she can become a strong woman. how can she take care of herself if her boyfriend isnt letting see what she has go up against? and what if her biggest fear and problem is him? who'll protect her then? i will. i dont care if she comes back to me or not, so long as shes safe is all that matters. i love her, and ill forever protect her. and im prepared to die to prove it....let's go. live fast die young, just know your in love.

When i got the message from you in the mail. It tore into me, like i never could could have felt. So inside I am dying, but on the outside I smile. I love you still, and wish only your happiness. So I send you a letter, one in the mail. Saying that I'm happy. Saying that I'm glad. Becuase I am, I'm very happy for you. I'm glad to understand, That you're finally happy. But even as I'm happy for you. Even as I wear a smile for you. On the inside I am burning. I just want to let it go. A crack appears in my eyes. and I ask you.... to look away. So that you dont see it. So that you dont know that you've hurt me. I ask you, to turn your eyes away, and watch the sunset. All in an escape. Theres no other way now. No other feeling inside. No redemtpion, all the pain that turns my eyes. So its a new day, and as the sun rises, I can't help but think about you. This used to be our time. Where I'd no that you'd be with me. It was the beginning of a new day. It was something that I looked to, for strength, because I had none left. Because I'm so weak. So I ask you to look away. So that you don't see me. So that you don't remember, a pain. That you've unwantingly caused I'm sure. So I ask you to watch the sunrise. All for a chance to hide the pain from you. The crack in my eyes it grows. No new beginning just the end. All the pain that burns in my heart. Because its never hurt so much that I couldn't take it anymore. I've never wanted to feel this way about anyone. I just want to hide myself again. In a way that I can't feel such pain again. I fall to the ground, sick and tired of getting back up to face a pain i know is coming.

hi, im 19 and i can honestly say i know what true love is at such a young age. dont tell me that im too young, ive heard it plenty times before. heres my story, okay about a year ago me and my ex-gf parted ways. i was to into becoming something and making money. we both agreed that down the line we'd be together again, we were each others first true love. shes taken now, and the time away from her, ive only grown to love her more, im more mature as well and i know the patience and understanding that goes into an adult relationship. i say im happy for her, but i know i myself am miserable. i mean your true love is gone and away...with a meat-head wrestler. she was with me when i was nothing, and now that im something i have her to thank..because she inspried me to be something great and i can thankfully say i am something great.. i wont say what i do, or who i am. anyways, i want to fight for a better future for me and her, im willing to do whatever it takes. i write music for her that never gets played. she means so much to me and she knows it, and yet she acts like i dont exist. but i know she cares cause when my name is dropped she gets frozen. basically i need to know if its a good idea to fight the good fight, or to stand back let the meat-headed wrestler drop-out have her.. i figure i have nothing to lose, ive been single for too long, this will be my last fight if not my last goodbye... i just need some input and maybe some advice on how to wha techniques to get her back. i mean i know any girl would be happy to have me, but i dont care, ive been around the world and i know home is with her. so please help me....