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F*ck you. Leave me alone. I am not yours anymore and I do not need your approval for anything I am doing. I am doing these things for me and I am a much better person without you so don't you dare try and steal my happiness back. All you ever did towards the end was suck all of my energy and happiness, don't do it again! I was in a place where I could think fondly of you and could respect the decision you made. Now I hate you again.

I have forgotten what I wanted to post because this made me snort tea everywhere

Keep going melting, it only gets better!! Day... gone 4 months now and I stopped counting days a long time ago. About 2 minutes ago while posting in response to a thread on here I literally froze because it hit me - I am not in love with him anymore. I don't love him anymore. Wow. I have no idea why I'm crying about this, it is amazing.

I have realised tonight that I don't love you anymore. You told me I wouldn't always love you, as happy as I am, it does p*ss me off a little that you were right. I feel like running down the street shouting this at the top of my voice. I think it might be best if I just stick to posting here instead!

Day... 4 months almost I had sex with someone else woohoooooo!! *dances around* And I enjoyed it! *more dancing* Just wanted to say that it does get better, so much better it's almost hard to believe where I was 4 months ago. The above was probably just a one-off but my self-confidence has grown so much and I've grown up so much that I really don't mind I am happy with my life right now

Why do I still miss you when I know I will live a fuller life without you? The bad memories are starting to disappear and I can only think about the good. We share some amazing memories. I still love you, despite everything, I think a part of me always will. When you left you said I'd be over you in a few weeks, that I wouldn't always love you, that I'd find someone new. If only you knew how wrong you were.

Day... I don't know exactly... 70 or something like that? Possibly 80. The absence of breadcrumbs kind of p*sses me off, but then if I got them I'd just be confused I guess. But, seriously, nearly 4 years together and he just walks away without a backward glance - how?!?! Ah well, time to concentrate on the present.

I nearly text you drunk last night, instead I imagined doing it and had a little cry and then went to sleep This is it: Tonight I realised that I am happy without you, possibly even happier. I am definitely happy in a different way to before but I am enjoying my life. I see my friends so much more and I realise just how much I gave up for you. You didn't ask for it, so I don't blame you, but you didn't try to get along with my friends or even my family really. You are so in love with yourself that there wasn't any room for me or anyone else. I do miss you sometimes, but it's getting less and less. I never thought I could even breath without you but I am stronger than I realised. There are greater people ahead for me

I should have left you when you came back from Zante. You hurt me then and I never got over it. I never really forgave you, I just pretended because I thought I couldn't live without you. I shouldn't have given you the luxury of being able to walk away from me, I so wish I had walked away first. I swear if you hadn't kissed those girls we'd still be together. You cheated. You are a cheater. I deserve better than what you did to me. I'm gonna live my life and be so much better and happier than I ever would have been with you.

I actually had to work this out - I'm impressed with myself for losing track 31 days no contact! Began the moment he drove away. I'm feeling pretty good about my life, not quite there with feeling pretty good about myself but I'm getting better

If we're including famous people then Prince William and Kate Middleton broke up for a while. Complete different lifestyle to anyone on here, I know, but the whole world saw how happy they were to get married

I'm watching the inbetweeners top 10 moments, I'm laughing and thinking of you

I just wrote a message to you and then deleted it. If you really even wanted to just be friends then you know where I am. You know I care. If you think you can't make the first move because I haven't contacted you then you don't care enough and I deserve better.

I think you'll be getting back from your weekend away about now. Did you have a good time? Did you get drunk and think about me? Part of me was hoping that a weekend with your straight-talking uncle might sort your head out. I was kind of hoping you'd realise your mistake and contact me. I miss you. I don't want to and I don't miss the arrogant, self-obsessed person you became this summer, but I miss the old you.