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  1. I really didn't want to end things with you... but our relationship has gotten so unhealthy lately. I love you, but there is only so much that I can handle -- with your family, your job, your insecurities... You need to pick yourself up and be a man. You're no longer in the man-boy phase. I'm sick and tired of you escaping from all our problems and burying them under the rug. You say I give you direction, but how? You're still reverting to your same unhealthy ways every time we fight. I wish you could inspire me to be a better person... a more confident woman... a trusting woman... but you constantly pull me down with you. My heart aches that everything had to go down the drain, but I know that in time, I will heal and so will you... I wish you well.
  2. 4 months later, and I still miss you so much. Christmas isn't even helping at all. Remember how we built our own little world together last December 25? We had a blast and came home really late. This year, I'm just this pathetic girl sitting in front of her laptop with nothing to do. Everyone's so happy during the holidays, and I'm not. I don't know what's going on with you... you're probably happy with someone else, or you're probably missing me just as much as I am missing you... (but I know that's just 99% wishful thinking) There's just one last stop: New Years. I don't want to cry anymore, but if I do... I pray to God it'll be my last over you.
  3. I have a reconciliation story, though not as successful as I wanted it to turn out (but that's another forum post) My ex-boyfriend "A" and I had a short-lived but substantial relationship on the summer of 2010. Getting to know each other was the main objective of the relationship - we had many differences (personality traits, religion, etc.), but we rarely fought - up until the time I told him I talked to a recent ex-boyfriend who wanted to know how I was doing. I was dumped because A's ego was so bruised. He knew this ex-boyfriend of mine meant a lot to me, though I tole him there was no malice in talking to him at all. We still kept LC though, since nothing really major broke the relationship. I was angered at A's ability to let go so easily... so two months later, I start dating someone else. And this was when "A" starts texting me again, asking me out for a movie and such. But I've decided to push through with this new guy, knowing I wouldn't want to be in a relationship with A anymore - thinking he still had a lot of growing up to do. My attempt at the new relationship was unsuccessful after a couple of months, so I became single (and jaded) for about the next six months. Out of the blue, A texts me again (We had been in complete, cold NC for 7 months) and asks me out for coffee. This was nearing the end of the 2011 summer. We catch-up, and became more honest with each other about our feelings. We were no longer in that getting-to-know stage, and we actually backed ourselves up with genuine friendship. This eventually blossomed into the best relationship I've ever had that lasted for a little more than a year. He was the best boyfriend in the world, and the new relationship felt like heaven to me. We laughed, we cried, shared experiences, traveled abroad, met each other's families, etc. We broke up more than a month ago because of my fault. I got too comfortable with my abusive anger issues, but that's a completely different story. Do I pray for a reconciliation? Every minute or everyday. Am I scared it won't happen again this time? Yes I am. Because we never had major unhealthy issues to deal with before, but now we do. But hope springs eternal. It happened once, I'm more than praying it can happen again...
  4. I just hope you give me another chance to show you how much I do, TRULY, love you. I know I * * * * ed up, but I will love you forever.
  5. Day 11 of NC I just want to always be there for you - front and center... Most especially when the curtains fall.
  6. Day 9 NC Please... please... PLEASE get out of my head already! I was already doing so good this morning... Catering to myself, thinking of myself, what to do with myself... I was even going through hotels accross the city, thinking I'd book myself a room and treat myself to one day living alone and away from the city. Please leave me alone. I've cried enough to last my entire lifetime already.
  7. Do you still look back and think of me? Let alone miss me?
  8. So I cheated NC and looked at your Facebook again today. Why? Cause my sister said you made a NEW ACCOUNT that you BLOCKED me from!!! How cowardly of you! Have you no balls to delete your old account which has all of our pictures in it?! I'm starting to hate you!!!!!!!!!!
  9. Day 5 of NC BU Sept 8 Trying REALLY HARD to strike the balance between hoping for a reconciliation in the future, and letting you go completely. I don't want to be selfish, but at the same time... I know I can give back so much more. I hope one of these days, you let me in your heart again... and let the good memories come flooding through.
  10. Day 4 of NC BU Sept 8 Haven't slept a wink since yesterday, and it was my Banking Laws exam today. I couldn't study at all, and had to cheat off my friend most of the time. The pain has been too excruciating these past few days. I was able to put myself in your shoes since last night the moment you left me, and I could tell you truly don't deserve the person I was back then... I know I screwed up, but I will love you forever.
  11. Day 3 of NC BU Sept 8 One more day, and it's already a month since we've broken up... And here I am starting all over again with the 3 months! I hope you remember the good times, despite the hurt. I miss you so much.
  12. It's been a long month. I know I hurt you beyond measure. I've been truly remorseful. I can't help but think: Have you moved on, finally? If not, have you decided to keep TRYING to move on even when it hurts? I know true love is in setting you free, but it hurts too much.
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