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It does happen but some people put all their eggs in one basket hoping for something that's outwith their control/hands most of the time. It's hard to differentiate straight after a break-up if your being deluded in thinking you can get back with someone or not but if you don't change the focus from them to you then it's not going to help your chances for any hope you may have at rekindling with an ex somewhere down the line.

Melting, The more you keep on breaking NC the less effective it becomes for yourself. I feel as though I'm getting a deja vu feeling everytime you post in this thread as it's always the same. You need to toughen up and realise your strong. No more excuses! Put yourself first and knock that damn ex off the pedestal you bestowed upon him. You deserve better and not to be treated like a damn door mat, it's quite sad seeing someone get so low about their own self.

Day 12 Woke up this morning after a horrific nights sleep(or lack of) honestly have no idea but I couldn't empty my mind and just wander off to sleep. I'll be lucky if I got 3-5 hours sleep but hey ho, the show must go on baby. Nevertheless I ended up at the gym and burned another 700 cals in 40 minutes. Even a few of the girls in the gym were commenting on how hard I was pushing myself, which was a confidence booster. Ended up going a walk after dinner for a while to get out in the good weather and now I'm watching some football(soccer). Almost at the 2 week stage and I'm not overly worried or fussed about my ex as there isn't much I can say/do at this moment, as sad as it may sound. There's been times when I've wondered what she's up to etc and I know the onus is on me to get in touch with her when I can be her friend(as she's told me this) but I'm just going to patiently wait it out, keep improving to the best of my abilities.

Day 11 Haven't been on as much the past few days as I've been busy. Saturday was a very interesting day for me, was booze fuelled however, I never contacted her or thought about it. Instead her Step-Dad spoke to me in the local nightclub suggesting that I apologise to her for not being her friend right now. I simply replied(although drunk) "I have nothing to apologise for, I can't be her friend right now and I'll get in touch with her on my own terms". Anyways, last night I got bugger all sleep so I had a lazy day today which was long and boring. I read a few self improvement books and I genuinely feel better in myself. My Mum and Dad both love the change in me with me going back to the gym and also my new wardrobe which makes me look new and fresh in their eyes. Also noticing my attitude is changing and I don't give a crap what anyone else thinks now, the only person's opinion that counts is my own. Get in!

Forgot to do this yesterday so will include yesterday's in with today's. Day 7 A week has gone by and I was at the gym again pretty early this morning, managed to burn another load of calories and felt really good while doing so. Went out to lunch to Wetherspoons with my Mum and Dad, it was nice to get out with the parents for once. Something I haven't done in a good few years which is quite pathetic really. Ended up at the pub at night time with my friends to watch the football and came home at 10pm before going to sleep at about 11pm. Not much went through my head yesterday in all honesty, I was just looking at the difference in myself, chalk and cheese really. Day 8 Day 5 in a row at the gym, another lot of calories burned which again made me feel like I'm trying to better myself. I came home and had lunch and then headed out for a walk for about a hour or so. Tonight I plan on having a lazy-ish night as I've got a big day planned tomorrow with my friends. Also managed to get some new clothes in today as well which will hopefully make me look the part as well as me feeling like I'm the part too. Today was the first day I genuinely missed her but it wasn't as bad as what I thought. I know she'll be missing me just as much or a lot more as that's the type of girl she is.

Day 6 Started off today the same as I have every other day so far, went to the gym but today pushed myself some more and burned 800 calories in 47 minutes. How did I feel? I felt awesome! Ended up getting lunch with my Dad for a while and read a book until dinner time. Watched the football then after dinner and literally about to hit the hay quite soon. I must admit I thought I'd be thinking of you more than what I have this past 6 days but I realise that although I thought I needed you, I clearly didn't so I don't know why I acted like that, I only wanted you. Strange how things fall into perspective once you take a back seat and examine them.

Some great advice there - generally anything you feel like doing, do the damn opposite!

Day 4 Woke up early today and hit the gym something chronic! Managed to burn 700 calories in 45 minutes on the treadmill and I felt completely awesome after it. Ended up heading out with a mate to the local pub for games of pool and then went home and had dinner. Currently reading a book at this moment in time, something I haven't done for ages. Have also enquired about starting football(soccer) training with a local team as well.

Day 3 Planning a lazy day today compared to the past few days - thinking of going a long walk later on though as well as doing my weights again at some stage after dinner. Next few weeks I have off from work and my general plan is to hit the Gym Mon-Friday for both those 2 weeks to lose some lbs. I've noticed my sleeping patterns have become less random now - I'm actually able to sleep straight through for 8-10 hours sleep, since my ex and I mutually broke up my sleep has been disrupted during the night which isn't like me at all.

Day 2 Ended up going to the pub with my friends to watch the football(soccer) and went home to do some weights in my room. Currently reading some psychology books and also thinking of ways I can improve my dress sense as I basically dress like a 16 year old sports fanatic. Possibly heading out after dinner but waiting for my friend to text me back to see what's happening.