Runesoul

Lately I've been struggling with my opinion of my own and others' intelligence, which is an elusive enough concept in and of itself. I feel like I have a somewhat of an elitist attitude because when someone else doesn't understand a concept I take for granted, I can't understand how they could not understand (circular confusion? Then I bash myself mentally because I've always been taught all people are equal, and we can all do the same things if we try hard enough. This doesn't seem to be the case though. I usually attribute it to the person having done drugs or some such, but I think that's just me making up a reason to satisfy myself (weird, I know). Other times I feel that I am the one who is stupid. I have a hard time dealing with situations, and I generally try to avoid them. This would be fine if I didn't notice myself doing it. I consider myself an extremely observant person (more of that elitism perhaps?), which causes me no end of grief because I watch myself make up an excuse or just do absolutely nothing. I feel like I'm the only one who tortures myself this way. I guess I want to know other people's opinons (there, I did it without using y'all) about what you consider intelligent and how you deal with your own stupidity. Hmmpf, that kind of degenerated in places, but I guess my mind is jumping around quite a bit.. -Runesoul

Hm... It would require far too much thinking to figure that out. I guess it would be better to say most conversations are social pulp. Runesoul

Anyone ever feel like conversation is all social pulp? I get so sick carrying on a conversation which I know I don't care about and I'm pretty sure the other person doesn't care about. I can play the whole thing out in my head. Also sometimes I just can't think of anything to talk about.. including with my friends. So we just stand there for a while until one of walks away usually (in a class setting). Comments, suggestions, critcisms? Runesoul

Just curious as to why people workout (used in its loosest meaning). Personally I think it's important to discipline both my physical and mental (school/hobbies) self. Runesoul

Recently I've decided I want to create a workout plan. Althought I'm not quite sure how to go about it. I already workout at the gym sporadically throughout the week (twice-ish), but I want to incorporate some cardio into it. Should I do aerobic and anaerobic exercises on the same day? Or space them out... I'm not too worried about losing fat (6'3" 173lbs). Are there any websites that have free workout routines and such? Some of my friends run a lot and a few of them have shin splints. I would reallly rather not get this condition as I play sports with my friends periodically and have quite a lot of fun. Also open to a stretching routine, always thought itd be fun to do the splits Thanks for any help. I know I'm being a little vague here, but hey, I don't really know myself. Although I am willing to devote a decent amout of time to this plan. Oh yea, I'm a 17 year old male btw. Figure that might be useful. Runesoul

Well, school just began, which means lots of interaction with people I know well (i'm in an academy with like 50 people a class). It's not that I don't like to talk to people and such. But it seems like sometimes I just want to be left alone to my own devices without contact with anyone. It causes some tension at home because my parents want to know everything about my day, and I just want to be alone. I think most of it is I get fed up with having to act a certain way around people. Well not the way i have to act, but should act. Such as listening to a story or some such. Anyone else have this frustration? Sometimes I just want to (and rarely do at home...) scream at people because they just won't shut up and leave me alone. It seems like society places no value in being alone, only on interaction... I can control my emotions (such as hatred) only for so long. I have only really gotten mad at school perhaps twice (once when I kicked a bully who went flying quite a few feet, which I still remember as one of the most satisfying point in my life as the receiver was one of the few people I actively dislike). I guess I use time alone to release my pent up frustration and anger... Eh, there's a ramble for ya. Thoughts, Comments? Runesoul

I've noticed that sometimes when I looked at a previous gf, she looked absolutely gorgeous and such. But then other times, perhaps just a few minutes later, I'd look back at her and see unpleasant features instead. Anyone else ever experienced this? I don't mean to be shallow, but it's rather disconcerting when you begin to question what you saw as attractive physically in the first place. Runesoul

Recently, I've been considering starting to write a journal at the end of each day. Just recording my thoughts and feelings that otherwise would go through my head and quickly disappear. I think it would help me form my ideas of what my life might become in college and beyond a bit more clearly. Anyone here write a journal? Have you found that it has helped any? I plan on writing an application in java or C++ to encrypt and decrypt to keep prying eyes to themselves. Also an excuse to hone my programming mad skillz 8) Runesoul

Recently i've been toying with the idea of wearing weights on my arms/legs during the day, but i don't really know how to pursue it. It seems like they would have to be well-made in order to not put undue pressure on bones and joints, not to mention be comfortable. Would it be possibly to hyper-extend a joint if the weights were taken off? Just some stuff i've been pondering. Any knowledge of this sort of thing would be appreciated. Runesoul

Alright, right now I'm feeling kinda depressed. It seems like everywhere I go I have to put on this "everything is all right (or alright....)" persona to make people feel comfortable around me. And then if I show any of myself it is completely uncharacteristic of me from other people's points of view. It just seems like I ALWAYS have to be funny and talkative around other people or they thing something is wrong with me. Any of you guys ever find yourself in this kind of situation? What did you do? I personally am getting sick of it, but I don't want to hurt anyone... Hmm...... Runesoul

... Man, I'm sorry, that royally sucks. As you said, time will probably help, but until then what to do? Anything and everything you can do to fill the time and make the pain lessen. Distract yourself by taking up a hobby. Dwelling on it will just make it worse. I'm not sure I could take my own advice in your situtation, but try... Remember that there are still people in this world who care about you. All the sympathy in the world goes out to you. Runesoul

Do you enjoy learning? and I don't mean having unwanted facts shoved down you throat. The AP courses are supposed to help foster your reasoning abilities, so to an extent you are more independent. I'm taking quite a few AP or pre-AP courses, and I think (this is not arrogance) that I could teach myself just as well or better than most of the teachers. So I guess what i'm trying to say is if you actually want to learn facts that could be useful to you later, then do it by all means. And don't let the homework or the AP test scare you. Get a Princeton Review Book for the class you are in (I think they have them on most books). I have one on the AP World History class I'm in and it really helps me a lot. My ramblings, hopefully they provide some sort of insight. Runesoul

Well, I don't really think of asking someone out as asking them to be my girlfriend. It's just a way that lets them know you are interested and you learn there response, be it good or bad. For some people I think it does carry a slightly more serious connotation that requires previous contact and perhaps conversation. Just my point of view Runesoul

These are the kinds of questions that keep me up late at night, wondering about the seeming futility of it all. Runesoul

Lately, I've been thinking a lot about love, and wondered what y'alls opinions of "true love" are. I mean, I can be passionately affectionate with a girl for about 3 weeks, and then suddenly be void of all emotion towards her. I feel like I don't really know myself at all, and thus can't decide what I like or don't like. Have any of you guys ever felt this way? I'm not one to point fingers, but it seems like bodily chemistry is playing cruel tricks on me... Perhaps I'm over thinking this... Well... This topic has kind of wandered all over the place, but that's what I get for taking 20 mins to write this post. Opinions are Welcome. Runesoul