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Deciduous

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  1. Dear Roger, I forgive you. I forgive you for not telling me about your addiction. I forgive you. I have held onto my anger for months and I need to let it go. I deliberately wanted you to to live in fear over your secret - but that is not right. I can also see how much I hurt you and just how insensitive, inhumane and appalling I was during our relationship. I am ashamed. We weren't suited, but that is no excuse for a blatant lack of human compassion. Funny enough, you're coming back for Sept-Nov, did help me recover from the pain I felt over the split in August. It really did. I was able to let the relationship go without too much pain. However I don't believe people should go around sacrificing themselves on the alter of not wanting to dump some-one, by sitting in a room with them for 8 weeks. I think that was a bit much on your part, a bit too much sacrificing coupled with a fear of being alone. Clearly you needed time and space to process your hurt over the lady from August. I don't feel it was terribly healthy for you and my reaction to your addiction my well of sent you scuttling back into the shadows of denial and repression. For that, I apologise. In so many cases, when I person gets off lightly with one person, they enter into a world of pain with another. And maybe that is fair. Maybe it is to teach them compassion and humility and just how fragile the human is. Or maybe I just have ty taste in Men. Who knows. Maybe this is my final desperate act of bargaining with the Universe to avoid my own 'orrible heartbreak, but I hope it is more than that. Pain makes us vulnerable and more understanding of the human frailities and failures of others. Pain makes us raw and perhaps that is what is required of me now. So I forgive you. Remember secrets make you sick, though. They wear you down and tear down the spirit. I can honestly say that I wish you well. I will try to remember you as that person who inexplicably came to tidy my room and calm me down when I was so low with heartbreak. That was an astonishing act of compassion. Not many blokes would have faced me and for that act alone, you deserve to be released from wrath and deserve forgiveness. I hope one day I remember to "Pay" that incredible act "Forward." Deci
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