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When I told my friends they thought it was some kind of joke, they ditched me laughing and joking around saying "look at me im sam, lets kill myself!" i lost all my friends because of that... but think in ten years time you wont even know them... they will just be forgotten, you can live your life, to the fullest... if you ever need to talk to someone add me email removed i would always love to talk to someone... sam,

thanks guys soo much, i feel so much more comfortable about this now...

cool... thanks, i personally dont find anyone from my school that i would kiss and next years high school... cant wait there will be heaps more faces... thanks to you all!

im 12 years old and the only kiss i have ever had was through spin the bottle... what i wanted to know is it getting too late... when did you guys have your first kiss... am i getting left behind?

i went to a sleep over party and me and a girl slept next to each other and we were texting each other with ehr mobile even though we were sleeping right next to each other... she wrote in her texts things like... "good night sammy" and "Sweet dreams" and "aww ur so sweet" wat i want to know is what does all this mean...

giggling... and i think that when they chase you lol thats sooo cute! or or or when they go 'awwww' to you lol... plenty more but thats the best...

life sucks... but you sound like a very very nice guy... dont let school take your life like that... i know school can be hard, but think you dont know whats going to happen in twenty years from now... you could be rich have a wife and kids... you cant give up all hope because of school... and anyway... by your typing it sounds like youre a smart guy, very nice and could take on the world... i hope you understand you do have people around the world as your friends... all of these enotalone people theyre here for you... i am here for you... i hope you pick wisely... your friend sam...

Hey guys, Sorry I havent posted lately lol forgot about the thread... Hey look Im feeling a tad better now which is great I guess! I have a very supportive online friend (thoe only REAL friend) I know of. She helped me alot. her names alex or in other words my sis... I love her to pieces! and am soo happy I have met her... I just wanted to add, and this is an issuethat disturbs me much... but my dad seems to be how would you say ignoring me er well not ignoring but lately I havent been up and about and dads been hating that... he thinks im "differant" from other kids. I find that hard to cope I mean hes my own dad and yet he acts so much differant... its not a big issue not to worry lol... I am feeling a little better since my last post and thats all that matters... my skys are blue for now so I'll take that chance and enjoy thank you alot neva_black_n_white for helping me with that... it made me reliase people do care and thank god for that LOL until next time thanks

Hi... I have been trying to keep my smile up for you but that will probably come later on. I have never been as close as I wanted to to my parents and mum and me would normally end up insulting each other. at a young age dad hit me and my brother real hard with a 2 by 4 piece of wood. We were always getting in fights and then one day I couldnt handle them anymore and then my friends started ditching me for my enemy all 4 of them. I was puicked on for being a "loner" and with no one around that cared for me I simply found it too hard to cope. I strted hurting myself screaming and crying. I was always a straight-up christian and loved god but I found he did nothing to me I prayed and prayed and prayed every night and cried almost every night so I gave up in god to. Now all my friends are on the otherside of the world sitting behind computers. Wll not all of them are friends one of them wants me to die he goes "just go no one wants you on this planet anyway!!!" now I look to enotalone to help me out. I dont want to tell my parents when they found out that I was depressed they didnt know I was suicidal but depressed mum says "alright get in your room and youre not coming down!" I am now getting tired of this and I have even had a couple of dreams of me dying..I tell myself to hurt myself and I want to live in peace and quiet Thanks for everything Sam xxx

hey! I have msn and lack friends I have added you to my msn messenger so we can talk take care...

I do follow that exactly one thing I said to myself about god was "why have a god who picks on you like that...may as well believe in satin" I just want it over sometimes...and I do know what it feels like thanks though for the help... sam xxx

trying to live, trying to breathe, feel so nieve, to Think I could have trusted you, to think I couldve been friends, both us two... caught in my fury, defending to my personal jury, caught in your web, trying to breathe, feel so nieve, to have trusted you, to think of us two, it wasnt at all new, it had happened before, you slammed the door, you should have heard me roar! hang me with your noose, make sure it aint loose, kill me like a sorry goose, til my vains turn, til my heart, it burns, i know you, its all no big concern, what matters the most, is im dead, my red blood, it feeds the earth. like a memorable new birth, caught in my fury, defending to my personal jury, caught in your web, trying to breathe, feel so nieve, to have trusted you, to think of us two, it wasnt at all new, it had happened before, you slammed the door, you should have heard me roar! you all saw, my life it flashed so quick, it all, it all makes me sick! let my blood fill my grave, dont let me be saved, im a mortal sick human to you, it all means nothing to you too!

sometimes I believe god ppunishes me he tortures me he picks on me and I am a christian and prayed almost every night nothing happened he tortures me to the point I no longer follow him in christianity he doesnt help, I dont even believe in him he just lets the rain wash me!

very food to hear...

I really like this girl even though I never see nor talk with her and thats what gets me so annoyed I dont have the nerves to go up to her...she plays with the snobby type of people and I have spoken to her before but I need a smooth and easy way where I can simply get from A to B not A to Z...thank you guys