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The Flawed Mirror He walked toward the antique mirror accross the dressing room. "Wonderful craftmanship, isn't it?", he remarked as he lightly brushed the mirror's intricate engraving. "Verily milord. An exquisite piece indeed.", they chorused as a servant should. "This mirror is flawed isn't it?", he remarked again as he leaned heavily on the seemingly flawless mirror. "Forgive us milord!", they wept in terror as their gleaming eyes examined the silvered mirror face in futility. "I am a flawed mirror, am I not?", he smiled sadly as he traced the hidden cracks among the wooden supports. The servants gasped and averted their eyes. And I just smiled and said, "Soon cracks will widen, and we shall fall..." I smiled as the sound of splintering wood was chorused by the shattering mirror... I am a flawed mirror, am I not? ~ eterna2 ---------------------------------------------------------------- Not Enough Words are not enough to describe what I felt And friends are not enough to hold the hurts at bay Will is not enough to hold me up and live And death is not enough to ease my pain and sleep Time was not enough to heal my wounds And care was not enough to fill my void Life is not enough when love is dead And I am not enough for where once love was is now Gone ~ Eterna2 ---------------------------------------------------------------- Hope I They asked, "Why do your art always weep?" I said, "Because my eyes have no more tears." So they asked, "Why do your ink always bleed?" So I said, "Because my heart has no more love." Then they asked, "But why are you smiling thus?" And thus I said, "Because there is no more Hope." ~ ETerna2 ---------------------------------------------------------------- Hope II I asked, "Who are you to drag me up?" He said, "I am you and you are me." So I asked, "Why do you wish to hurt me so?" So he said, "I only wish that you would live." Then I asked, "It will hurt if you are here." And thus he said, "But life will end, if I am done." ~ Eterna2 ------------------------------------------------------------------- sigh* I am back again... the 3rd time now... depression haunts me forever... 765 days and the cracks only widen...

back again... after a long period of absense... I think I'm depressed again... I was almost out of it, almost ... but i think i stumbled and fell, now I'm right where I've started... I dunno this is a good thing or a bad one... I noe the pain, it is still the same after all these times... a familiar face... but I dunno, I'm so tired... I tried very hard to get out of it... I was almost feeling normal, after 16 months... but then it just snap, i just snap... i guess, its still not enough... i'm so tired and hopless now... it is so hard to fight alone... i din see a doc, nor am I on any medication... i dun not wish to, my parents do not noe either, and i dun wanna them to noe either... i dunno... i guess i will pick myself up afterawhile... just it seem even harder this time... i dun see a light at the end of the road... but i will still do it, until I'm utterly expired... but it is kinda hard to cope, when u keep tearing every few minutes or so... and i'm a guy 2 boot... sigh... my will isn't broken yet, it is just that i feel so tired... and it seem so much easier to just sit down ... i wish the path can be easier... i wish i can feel happy... i wish the sadness can go away... i wish someone would understand... but i guess it is impossible to truly feel another's pain... and there is nothing much anyone can help... although i wished for a better way... healing starts from self... just gimme some encouragement will ya? I need to build up my fighting spirit again... sigh* maybe i will rest awhile... anyone has any tips on eating? cuz i realli dun feel like eating most of the time. but i feel hungry, but just dun have the mood to eat. food just dun interest mi much anymore... tried eating all my fav food, but they dun look as nice as in the past anymore...

Rivers flowing accross the plains The same yet changed, the old man says Gushing waters, I felt a pain So deep within, where no eyes lays Rivers flowing accross my face Warm and bitter, with touch of gay Seeping sorrows, through the lace A wound was weeping, through the endless days ~ Eterna2

I know, I knew, but still I flew into the blazing light in view A moth, I am, to pain I flew Head on, blindly, to my death I knew Again again, was burnt am I But still a moth I surely am to death, to death, O'I rejoiced Be burnt to ashes, tears in joy In pain, in pain, a pain I seeked In joy, in joy, a pain enjoyed Your eyes, your face, my fading sight Soon a moth be gone into the endless night. ~ Eterna2

Do waste time pondering over something that you have no control. Just prepare for the future! Death needs no preparation, it is better to be prepared for tomorrow than realise u are still alive and u are not ready for it.

3 more days... it would be exactly 365.5 days to my breakup... i tot i was feeling better... but it always comes back... the hurt nv goes away... and the pain is so much harder to bear to know tat she is happily with another guy... A pain so deep within my heart A gnawing pain the words are lost I wonder why is it that I feels so strange my heart still breaks A weeping wound to bleed nonstop Tonight to feel my one year pain my love is gone my love is gone away and never back again my heart is scarred my heart is scarred forever and never is whole again One year pain be gone like wind For there is more and years to come More years of pain A curse she cast T'morrow comes A new year's pain ~ Eterna2

haha thanks just relaz and keep faith... everything will eventually balance out in the end... it will come, just be patient... dun give up hope... this is truth eternal...

ya tat is so true!!! tat is why we guys always suffer more after a breakup... sigh*

Life goes round and round Good beckons good Evil beckons evil Life after death Death after life All are round and round ~ Eterna2 haha something i just painted life goes round and round, wat u do, u will get ...

This is fantastic!!... some times it is sad tat friends have to part, becuz each have their own lives to live... but sometimes, when u meet up again, even if it has been many years, u still feel as comfortable with each others as in the past... this is the beauty of friendship

very true!!! pity i can't speak spanish, so have no idea how it sound like in its original form

Thanks everyone well, lets hope peace comes to everyone soon...

ya... i agree with u... I may not have these experiences, but just pure imagining wat happening down there... makes me sad... I hope i will nv get the chance... in fact, no one shld experience this, especially children. no more war... I hope everything settle down soon... I still think violence and war solves nothing, no one wins a win, everyone is a loser, especially the mothers and the childrens... on both side... sigh* light a candle for peace... but nothing brings back a son, a father, a brother... sigh*

Cries of peace to go unheard Black is gold, and paid with blood Crimson stained, the desert sand A mother's heart is torn apart I wept for them of soldiers not the dead, the wounded and the lost I wept for them of soldiers caught A mother's pain, a bitter cost All men are brothers My mother's son Peace and not war To kill I can't O'war I hate you I hate you so Soldier am I But to war I won't ~ Eterna2

thanks hahha feeling better now, finished one project 3 more to go and deadline is end of this month...