hi Trav thanks for your reply, you are going through a very similar situation to myself. ive read your posts with great sympathy cos i know how you feel. i havent ate for 3 days, i feel sick, i cry, i can't sleep and thoughts are just racing through mind mind from regret to what if id done that and i shouldve said that etc etc etc. it won't go away, the knot in my stomach is too much to bear. the hurt is undescribable. i expect you're going the the same emotional spell too. ive just sent a final goodbye from the heart letter (hoping she'll contact me) but ive heard nothing. i want her back but theres only so much you can do without creating hassle and causing her to hate you. like your ex, there'll always be a place in your heart for her, likewise with me. Y'see ive been through this before a few years back and believe you me Trav, the pain eases then eventually goes away, you think it never will, but i assure you it will. my emotional stage today is depression, i see no point to life anymore, im in deep pain and im very lonely and the happy memories are upsetting me badly. like your ex said, mine did too, she said she can't take me back cos she don't deserve me, unfortunately the other reply you got is right, they are saying that to ease the pain of the break up to get you away. my other ex of a few years back did that too. i really hope you get back with her and although its hard, really hard, you gotta go with that other reply you got cos its true: pretend you're getting on with your life and are happy. women dont like men who whimper and become gibbering wrecks, they will only come back to you when they see you are doing ok without her (although you're really not!). believe you me mate i have great sympathy for you as im going through the same, the heartache is tremendous and like you said when a song comes on to remind of your times it kills, it really kills. let time do its job, look at your emotions each day, was today as bad as 3 days ago? anger, upset, jealousy, hate, confusion....it's a process and can go in any direction with the hurt one. i wonder if my ex is thinking about me now and if shes read my letter? the frustration and wonder nags at me. give it time mate, anything could happen!
Carl
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