You know what i think......a relationship is not perfect....and a relationship is about forgiving someone for their faults. IF she felt that way she would have broke it off with you alot earlier. IF she LOVED you then love is forgiving. Love is not anger and pain. If she loved and cared about you that much and knew you changed yourself from that life style....then she should have forgivin you. But she is using that stupid excuse to undo what she did to you. If she was your true love...then she wouldnt have seen someone behind your back. Don't contact her anymore! You can't torment yourself like this.....The road for you seems hard and depressing but you will overcome that and you will find someone for you. You took care of the problems with yourself....its not about you..Its about her...she has the problems now. You need to move on and take it slow with someone else. Eventually...she will just be a memorie........hopefully forgotton....and you will be in a relationship were this person will never do that to you...and will forgive you for your mistakes you made in your life.
Thank you
