I'll explain this in as much detail as I can for I am in need of help....
It's been 6 months since my relationship has ended. I don't know where to start or where to end but this is how it all came about.
I was seeing this girl for 3 years, In these three years we have had 2 children, I love these children and due to the fact that the economy crashed so hard over this past year we were finacially struggling. I decided that it was in my best and her best interest that we relocate to a location that has jobs to offer. After relocating everything went downhill we fougt all the time, there was nothing left, I was so in love she was so out of love, I made a lot of bad descions thru this relationship but she made some bad ones as well. Now after 6 months of crying mysekf to sleep every night nothing has chaged. We were engaged and we have children this makes everything hard, I don't want my kids to grow up with multiple male role models and never have a dad other then one that pays child support and lives in a different area. She don't want to be with me because she needs her time. So I try giving her the time she needs, but thats not enough. I don't want to be alone and away from her and my children but she don't want to be with me, This 6 months worth of breakup time has been a nightmare for me, But I have to deal with it, what makes it all harder then that is I see her often and everytime I see her it rekindles the flames that I have for her I try to make the best of it but that dont work either, I stay with her and get close but it's just me that gets close again when I feel that I really want to be with her still and she feels that she dont want to be with me. I cry so much it hurts, I wish things would just end so I could get on with life but I still can't get over her. There are small things that just completely set me off I mean nothing seems to be good enough for her, I see that she just loves pissing me off. I mean i try to enjoy time with her and she does stupid shit like takes a phone call when I'm present and goes in her room by herself and talks on the phone for however long she wants, Leaving me in the living room with my son, Yeah it's great to be with my son, but is this really something that all women do, I mean is there a reason this happens, Why would anyone just totally ignore someone that they call thier best friend by taking a phone call or going out all night with old friends or anything like that, I mea its obvious that I must move on but im deeply in love with her and have not figured out how to move on and still keep in contact with my kids and not fight with her. I live in a different town then they do so I don't see my kids every day I only see them when I can take a weekend off work and go see them, But how do you get over someone when you have to keep in contact with them for children, Obviously she has gotten over me cause she has no problem dating and going out with other guys so when I come to see her its nothing to her she don;t have those feelings for me so I'm the one thats helplessly lost in love and living the most painful part of life I have ever lived. All I want is advice on how to still keep in contact with my children and keep in contact with her yet not want to be with her as well. It's very hard to do all these things and at this very moment a lot of this might be running together but it's because I just got in a stupid fight with her and I'm just typing everything that comes to mind. Someone anyone please help me figure out how to get over a love of your life when you have to see her to see the kids you love as well.
Broken hearted and confused as hell...........
