travsjeep

Dated for 4 years and found out after she left that she has done the things I thought would never happen. After being convicted that she had been lying to me since the beginning of our relationship that she was raped but insted had sex with the guy (which was before me). She kissed 3 others guys when we broke up for the first time ( two of them were with my best friends). Everytime I would not hang out with her anyguy that would ask her to go out to the movies she would it didnt matter who it was. . She never told me becasue she was not ready for everyone to think that this model girl was actually trailer park trash. I still love her but dont know if I can trust her when she gets home and what she says for the rest of my life with her. Is this a step that she will continue doing so I can trust her? I definalty can do this again with her if she will lie to me about her being with other people. Sh has finally admitted that she has a lieing problem.

lady, I try. She will be a part of me for the rest of my life. When I here are song I cry. When I see her in my head I hurt she is my friend and companuon. Im still nurvous about her coming back in 3 months...it actually scars me that I will fall in love again with her. She has my heart and Im trying to make the most of it while she is gone but she is every where I go. I need her by my side. Thanks for the advise.

I let her walk out the door because I need to see if I could live without her. I had to grow up, and she had to also. As I figured out I couldnt. She moved on becasue she is in Hawaii and is surronded by men that want her and she is eating it up. I now she will have fellings when she gets back to this small little town and Im by my self still waiting for her but she thinking that Im messing around which I'm not. If I just get one more chance I can chance the rest of my life with her. If she doesnt even give me the time of day and is with some guy by then it will eat a hole throw my heart thinking I will never get to show her my love for her. And the thoughts of WHAT IF I WOULDNT HAVE thing. I had the chance to fall ion love with her but my head was some where else I look back and think THIS SUCKS only if I could look at her for a split second one more time I know she would fall for me again.

We have not seen each other for 4 months now after 4 years of love and passion, I let her go out the door and go on missions because I needed to grow up without her and to see if we would come back with more love...she decided to let me go a week ago. I have tryed to get her back buy writing and sending her cd's I made for her. Ever since she has left my life has gone down hill for me. My heart needs her to complete it and she doesnt think I really mean that. She always tells me shes not going to call me and I dont want her back becasue she brought me through so much that she really doesnt think she deserves me. But I dont care what she has done because I will love her till the day I die. I wish I would have told her that and stoped her before she left but I didnt. she will be back in 3 months. What can I do...it hard not being able to kiss her and hug her for that long. I need one more chance to prove that Im the only one for her and she cant see that Im more mature and ready for the relationship. I want to have two dates with her. My plan is to bring her to her favorite resturant that I never brought her too becasue it was too far to drive. The second at my new house I want to cover the floors with roses and have dinner that I made with cadle light looking out on to the water while listening to are favorite music. I need her back. What can I do to stop being so depressed that I might not get the chance to do somthing like that with her???

Some times I pretend she is next to me when Im alone and I talk to her about my day. I think of us having awsome sex. Some times I wish I would have never walked out that door. I will never be able to love another women because I feel like I lost my other half. Not even that she took my heart. Her and I were ment to be but I let her go and she left and now I will have to see her with someone else for the rest of my life. I have tryed everything to get her back and it just doesnt work. I need her like I need tommarow. She is my life and my soal mate She new everything about me and grew up with me. I took care of her and loved her. I feel like that older person when there wife dies they die right after. I will love her till the day I die. Is this normal???

I dated a girl for 4 years and it was up and down. We had sex all if the time with each other. When we broke up once she went on a date and it killed me but she was faitfull didnt do anything. I paid her back and went to a dance club and made out with some girl that night to feel better. Stupid mistake and it was a back and forth thing since than and now I cant live with out her...and now she is gone for good. Your situation is different because we both never slept with anyone. I think you guys are both egual even though I couldnt do it. I would let her go because this thing is out of hand. Start over again with someone new and forget her. Stop doing the back and forth thing.

Im trying my best. She was great in my life but she was the hardest person to date. She just couldnt sit home. Anyways dont want to get into all of that. But I guess life goes on even though I dont want to say it. I just will go and work for my dad and help my grandfather at the hospital and try my best to go on. I just wish I could do somting all that we have been through I wish she would give it a chance before all of this other kid thing. I wish she will come back and see who Iam and than say wow what was I thinking he is really chaged. I hope I find someone but right now she is runing around on some island with my heart and will till the day she comes back and personaly gives it back to me. Trav

She left to hawii on missions and the guy she was friends with is still writing her every day and sending her pictures. I learned all this when she asked me to start calling her. It was good conversations than I asked her to comitt to one of us becasue I was sick of hering about this Brain kid and she decide to try him becasue he was on missions too. 4 days later she called saying Im sorry lets be friend and Im friends with Brian too. Than I was happy Im getting some were it was great. She than was coming to me with personal question of what she should do with this and this and it was like old times. But every time we talked she would change her mind like God says we shouldnt be together. Than Im not goign to talk to you when I get back, than it none of your business if I talk to him and dont call anymore after we have had good terms for the last month. This is syco. All I asked her to go on a couple of dates when you get back and she said no after saying the brian thing she said she apoligized to him for talking to me. so IM LIKE AHAHAHAHAHAHAH she is messed up ILOVE HER TO DEATH but she has to figur out everything in lIfe and try not to think to much. This sucks.

Ok. she is in Hawii and has not seen me for 4 months now. She does not see me face to face everyday like she use too and does not see the man Iam now. She has tons of guys wanting her. She does not know what to do in life right now. And she is 18. Gone away for the first time. Before when we broke up and I tryed to move on it was hard but she got me back all the time becasue she could see me and cry in front of me and beg me back. She let me go after I begged her back over the phone and she has told me that she doesnt know and I know she still loves me but is blinded by the fact that I love her and need her and dont want everything else. I was like her when I was 18 and was consumed by love of other girls and it took me time till I was 21 to find out the only girl I should have been with was her. Is this just a stage or am I dont with. Could it be the girls she is around and the invironment. Or is it just I have no one and she has everything in life while I sit here. It is killing me knowing I dated a girl for 4 years and have done everything with her for the first time and now some guy is getting to be around her and she is forgetting me. IT SUCKS.

I have done all of that. Gone away for the weekend. Hung out with new people and have made new plans for my life. It is hard because when I made plans in the past she was there to confort me and take care of me. It just makes me mad that who ever gets her they will have the time of there life and the best girlfriend ever. Im the one that had to go through all of the hard times with her and when she was a no body I made her popular in her new school. The person she is today is because of me. Im trying to move on but it is hard. I will go through a depression if I ever see her back in town with this new guy. I will fall apart even if I'm over her. It seems like in my head she and I were ment to be because we were like brother and sister and all I need is one more chance. I feel like when a person is married for 40 years and loses there mate for life and dies with that person. I have no interest in any one else. Im the man of her dreams now and I can thave her anymore. I feel like my life is over, Trav

We started dating when I was 17 and she was 15. We did everything together she had some problems from this guy in her past from raping her. It was hard but I helped her through it. We grew up together spending every day and night with each other. We made food, watched movies and took walkes with each other. My heart sunk everytime we kissed. I got to the age in college when I had girls wanting me and I didnt know what I wanted in life and I was lost and let her go. But I still had sex with her every night because it took my stress away. She moved on but we still saw each other off and on. I still loved her and she loved me. She was the girl everyone wanted to have so there was problems with my friend trying to get her. So I lost a lot of friends over her. She did some little stupid things and I did too. Im now 21 and she is 18. She was sent to a missions trip 3 months ago. I let her go because I thought It would be a good thing for us to be apart and not see each other every day for six months. And see if we could come back and get married if we still wanted each other. Since she left I fell apart. I thought I could go and live without her but I cant. I believe know one can make my heart pound like she does. One thing that has been good since she has left that I became a better person and not chasing around girls and parting. I help my grandfather in the hospital and run a campus Christian fellowship and have changed my life around. I have begged her back on the phone over and over and sent her things in the mail. She met some one and she wants to be with him and not me anymore. She blams it on me because I let her go on this trip. She says God does not want me with her anymore and this man is who she should be with. But what I have in my head is "what if I wouldnt have let her go????" I could have been married to her right now. I can t let go because everywere I go she is there and I love her to death and dont want anyone. She does not see that because she is in Hawii and has this guy on her mind. She even told me she does not want to talk to me anymore when she gets home. I know this guy she is with and it will not work he lies to her to make him look good and she is going to get hurt but she believes him and I have no way to stop it form happening. I need her back. WHAT SHOULD I DO?