i have been there and done that road, it is no fun....but you have got to make it happen....this is a chance for you to "find" yourself, make this a lifetime journey.....keep a journal and read as much as you can. My favorite is In the Meantime.....excellent book....also, books about identity... it has taken me 40 years to figure out who i am but i finally realize what i enjoy doing, by myself.....i am learning everyday about who i am and it gets more better as the days go on. if you would like to e-mail me, e-mail me at email removed i would be more than happy to help you get through this time in your life......everything is temporary...aloha