Convict7

Is it wrong that I am still so incredibly far from being over you? All I want is to have you back and be working on our problems and to hold you at night again. Oh God to hold you again! I'm still throwing up randomly from being so upset. I still can't sleep at all. I still think about you all the time. I wish I could call you right now and hear your voice and feel like everything will be better. You are the most special person I have ever known. No one will ever replace you in my heart, you are so unique and amazing. I wish I could tell you about the interview I'm going on next week. I wish I could talk to you about all my goals for the next year and have you be excited about them too. I wish you could be a part of those plans...

We have had such a long serious relationship though. It's hard to let go, I keep thinking that she is such a great match for me and it would be a big mistake to let go. At the same time though, I don't feel like I can trust her anymore. I don't know what to do at all.

To answer you, it seemed like she was trying to start something more serious with him or to take an online sexual thing to the next level(ie The email back from this one, to her, had the words "I don't think you could get much out of a dream on how well I kiss" and had the feel of unrequited love. Sort of like he has been wanting her and waiting through our relationship to have her. He really seems to wish for her. I don't know the guy but they have been friends for a while. She still appearsvery interested in me but I feel like I wan to be with her less and less, but at the same time I think if I stay away he will be there for her. As a side note, this working through emotions is very new to me. Because of this girl I am no longer the type to fight first and then find out the truth. I kind of miss those days.

I have been dating my current girlfriend for almost nine months. I recently found an email from her to another guy. It was vague in specifics but most definitly had a sexual undertone, also, near the end of this lengthy email, she seemed to be offering herself to him. Most of the email was in the guise of her telling him of a dream she had about him. The dream entailed his kissing her and words about keeping the kissing hidden because no one could know. Near the end, the "offering herself" consisted of her claiming that he was a good kisser and and asks what might happen now that he has this information. It was also conspicuously signed with "love" Conspicuous in that she writes a sentance about how she never signs things with love. Lastly it says that she will be thinking of him. That's what happened. I confronted her and she claims to want to work this out and to have severed all ties to this guy. I have trouble believing that much because she (after alot of prodding) admitted to have been keeping this guy a secret friend for over a month. She claims not to have acted on these dreams/fantasies. She is home from college on weekends and is on break this week. You might think that is good, but he lives close to her house. I can't help but think that when she claims to be out with her family or such, that she is secretly meeting with him. Any questions about the situation just ask. Sorry this post is so long. Thanks