boyblue

I realise that I hurt you with what I said and I did not really realise what I was doing at the time as I was being irrational. I know you started to hate me but deep down I really hope you still have positive feelings and can forgive and forget. I know we were only dating a short time but I know we both felt a real connection and we enjoyed each other's company and you were really on top of the world you had met a really decent guy who wanted to be there for you and keep you safe and loved. I know I didn't show it and I know that's kind of half what made you start seeing a side in me that you felt wasn't what you wanted, but hoped so much for. You may or may not care right now and I don't know if you ever want to try again but be assured I have recognised my mistakes and I hope you have reflected on your side of it, I know you didn't like showing emotions or talking about things and I tried to well get it out of you and this came accross as forceful, although the intention was caring and really wanting to listen and hear your side. Maybe you could think about that, that this is a side of you that needs to change and I hope you are making positive steps to do that as I have done to address my issues. Yours always xxx

After not speaking for so long now (nearly 2 months) I see where we both went wrong; I know I made mistakes and am more than willing to own up to them, and am sorry for saying the things I said to you. I cannot understand how you could go so cold and just want to be friends, I know you had been hurt in the past and I know you were sensitive and I realise I took you for granted and never treated you the way you so wanted to be treated, and this upset you and you took it out on me. I wish you would have talked and told me how you were really feeling instead of shutting yourself off, as I know you were so used to doing. When I think how when we first met you seemed to be so happy, putting your head on my shoulder when we first lay together, how when we lay on the couch and you seemed to content and happy lying with me, how we talked and talked till the small hours and we had so so much in common, and that we got on really well together (as you even said yourself), and it hurts me immensely that we longer share that, and we never tried to keep it going. I really felt you were the one, I know we barely were together 6 months but this is how I felt and I still feel know and I really thought this was it, I had met the girl of my future, who I would settle down with, love. look after, share our lives together and go through good and bad times, and hopefully have kids with. I know we never uttered the L word when we were together but I know somewhere within you you did love me and I know I did and still do love you immensely. No matter what I do in life I know I will always have a place in my heart for you and I dream every day that you will come back and fill it for me again. Your always and forever babe xxxx