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  1. Love1336
    I miss you.
  2. Love1336
    Lol. I am NEVER, ever BREAKING NC until the DAY I die. Yup. Pretty much. I know what I was expecting. I know. I am grow up. It hurts, but at least I got the answer. Now I gotta worry about me.
  3. Love1336
    You kept calling me honey. I'm annoyed. VERY annoyed. Don't know why I am over-thinking this. Ugh. I need a life.
  4. Love1336
    Day 1 still it haven't been 24/hrs. You would think breaking contact, I would miss you even more. But I don't... I feel calm... lol. Maybe in a couple days, i'll freak out and be "OMG WHAT HAVE I DONE?" Until then I'm okay.
  5. Love1336
    Day 1. I couldn't tell you that I still love, and miss you. Instead we had small talk. I must say, I love how you... ask... if i was with anyone... It made me smile. I laughed. I didn't bother to answer that. At least I didn't confess my dying love for you. At least... I'm still in one piece. When you said, "well I really have nothing else to say..." It kinda broke my heart,but I didn't update on anything crazy. I guess I gave you closure or at least some relieve. Blah. Missing you hurts. A lot. But hearing your voice... makes me happier. You want me to call you again... You want me to give you my new number. At least I'm remembered as a good person... vs she-devil.
  6. Love1336
    at least I didn't confess my dying love for you. At least I didn't really update you on my life. Ugh.... i miss you. I wondered. I know you still cared. Your voice. But, it's different. Blah. I miss you.
  7. Love1336
    Our phone conversation didn't went as well as I planned. You kept asking, "What's the bad news?" "You changed your number, and e-mails... You did a lot for me to get out of your life... So what's the bad news?" Lol, this man... I said... "Nothing. Just that I'm happy." I guess I could have dragged it out longer, but he wasn't in the mood to chat. I miss you. that's what I wanting to tell you. I miss you.
  8. Love1336
    YOU MADE ME CRY FOR A WHOLE MONTH. If I make you suffer for a little bit. I am happy.
  9. Love1336
    Day 43. I'm bipolar. I broke NC... And... he responded... He wants to talk. I'm afraid, i'm...nervous, i'm happy.
  10. Love1336
    I miss you. But, I'm not sending the e-mail. I'm not dealing with rejection. If we had what we had. I gotta move on, and let you be. I'll find love again.
  11. Love1336
    Day 43. I am bipolar. I don't want to break contact. I'm strong enough to deal with the wreck that may be. But, why add to my pain? Thanks Alberto(ex of three years) You really made me afraid to break NC. You taught me something amazing. To protect my own heart. She's good heart, wants best for me, however... I know sometimes when she's in love. She a bit reckless with herself. I'm happy. I'm glad i am not repeating mistakes.
  12. Love1336
    Day 40. To be EXACT. I know my counting been off. But whatever. I don't like numbers. Haha. Everyone on this board today have been lovely! I posted my letter, and got the response I wanting. Don't know if I'll break NC. I'm nervous.... I'm afraid, I'm... shaking... Yes, shaking. The thought of breaking NC, and letting you have the upper hand scares me. Why should I care about you anymore? I know the results of breaking NC. I dealt with it before. I remember the nights of crying myself to sleep. I remember stalking my ex page, and him flirting with other girls. I remember the pain. What would you say? I mean if i sent out a, "I miss you. I want to see you." Or whatever shorten version there is. What would we talk about? Us? The sky? WHAT? ugh. I feel... hopeful. I feel... blah. I feel all types of emotions.
  13. Love1336
    Ugh. So nobody wants me to break NC. lol. I keep making the letter shorter, and shorter. I guess i'll have to deleted everything by the time I am done.
  14. Love1336
    I guess I am angry. Because I feel GOOD. If i ever do break NC. It will be to get your BACK. I won't be throwing breadcrumbs being all confused. I will BE DIRECT AND FORWARD. Also with my dignity in tact along with that. If you reject me. FINE. At least I can say, "HEY I GAVE IT A TRY" I been wanting NC for MONTHS. Since you cheated on me, but you never back off. ever. I feel so much happier, and lighter then when I was with you. I feel good about myself. I don't know how you feel. But I do love you, and i want us to give it another go. Will you try? I don't know. But I'll find out.
  15. Love1336
    Day 40. Wow. It's been a month, and a week. I have to stop counting so much. Todayy I have done NOTHING. Lol. But cool thing is, I am okay with that. I am accepting being alone.
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