Lain

Dublin Sky Version 2.0 I've been on my own again tonight No one cares to think of me No one knows what's wrong with me The clouds cover up my scarred heart's sky There's just nothing left of me There's just nothing right with me See, I try to keep my distance and I always do my best I can't tarnish all my memories That's why I find myself thinking of you Of you I remember watching, laughing, making plans Trying to get you to notice me Trying to get you to fall for me My trembling heart would beat so fast You had fun ignoring me Staying far away from me When my self-control was slipping It was all the same to you If I hadn't been around at all You would have easily moved on without me Without me There's still a chance for me to try again To once more, while next to you, get mesmerized by the beauty of your eyes I always thought I could've made it through Right now, I don't want anything but you But you How many days will I have to regret you? How many nights till I forget you? Have I been wasting all the time? Is love such a crime? How many hopes to be left behind me? How many broken dreams to cure me? Have I been buried in your dirt? Did you have to cause this hurt? How many loads did I let you hijack? For how long can I stand in the playback? How did I end up sitting here? My feelings I wish I could sear?

I should gather all my guts together to take over you or let you go Late at night, alone, what do you dream of, while the life around us is a flow? Days, weeks, months pass by, but my affection all my wishes have remained unchanged You have never cared for me, will you ever? My young nature is worn out, not enraged I laugh at myself: a try -- a failure What is good for you and worth your precious time? Counting all the scars my heart now bears, I will write another truthful rhyme How many time and words and songs to waste to make you take a look in my direction? I know you are too good to give you up Oh, love, the epitome of imperfection! ^ Please go easy on this one; I composed it yesterday at 3 AM.

Well, actually, I am quite an optimistic person, and I only compose poems when I am feeling extremely bad! This is the way it goes, I cannot help it.

Thanks! Dedicated to [...] Out of sight, out of heart Not a such, I'm torn apart Am I blind? I cannot see Who you are you'll always be "Hope dies last, again, just wait," Mind says, "No, it is too late!" I will soon forget the past and get rid of you at last!

Denying the face of God Rejecting the idea of Belief I still hear angels singing above me and demons growling underneath. Together we cut the thorns of life During our voyage to the Milky Way "One can never ever be truly happy without knowing the pain," I say Watch in awe my solo flight I am free to fly, aeria gloris Pull me back again – my feet touch the ground - and revive the dreams of past glories. There is no other way out but to deeply breathe for more The depths of longing rise, while the spirits fall to the core. Human beings live eagerly when they are lucky enough to have a good reason If you stand alone, your existence must be nothing else than a boring season. Neverendless race makes us feel alive Not to fall on the run, just not to forget How to dream, how to love, how to yearn for what's left We will be able, I bet!

Another one.. There are so many freaks but not enough circuses They despise everybody taken by shallow purposes My friend, yes, you are special just like everyone else Ha ha, do you now get it, slave of social spells? Not at all is it sensible: Arrogance for no reason I regret to inform you: Your mind is your own prison! What makes us all human is long ago gone Pride, wrath, envy, lust, sloth, celebrate: we are done!

New poems.. My inmost soul, my inner self or selves? Ambivalent. Yes and no. The wanted thing, both mute and calling, what is it? Lack of gratitude. Hello again, Ms Conscience, speak then listen: I can't stand your whistle! There is a goal born long ago - hush! - I will never let it go.

Well, only the third stanza, just_smile. The poem in general was written during a bad period of my life when nothing seemed to be going right. I am perfectly fine now, however. No worries.

Is back occasionally When my sun sets, By a taper, I take out my pen and paper. Happy once, Now full of sadness - Going high and low is madness. Stay away, You always do! I have lost my patience, too. Come, change, come, I'm not a moaner, Just a loner, loner..

I barely made it through today again. The days are all the same. A thought I cannot turn away: Is it my fault? Is it your aim? I'm tired of this feeling- pain. It chilled me to the bone. I haven't seen your sun for weeks, Too long, too far from home. I know you are right there, somewhere. My tears now glow and sound. I want to burst out crying loud Falling to the ground. Where do we go from here? Nowhere.. I still believe in love. For those who don't: Through all the time you'll never rise above.

A countenance that is haunting your mind, familiar and plain. When he vanishes gratiutously into the night, you both go insane. A picture-a cloud that is curdling again above your laugh. Raining down the same, taking over the place when you walk the path. A moment you was lucky to catch of his distant life. A glance the eyes bear stuck in them- Nothingness and drive.

I am feeling your pain when you are down Reaching out my hands to the martyr's crown. The dazzling silence has made me blind Not being numb like a soul in the grind. I will dance on the broken glass by your side Without asking myself about fatuous pride. The feelings seem as if they were stars Showing up everywhere in your absense that chars.

I could try and get myself out of this place If you didn't rub off your indistinct trace Now someone must take me away from here To the realm of happiness we should steer In those depths echos a silent scream For these torments are more than a wicked whim I sense presense of yours then feel satiated My nature was newly invigorated Pitiful humans need just a bit Emotional polychrome tends to hit Nothing will crush the hidden potential Temptation of giving is too influential Letting go everything that restricts our limit Deadly fraud may rule when they've proved us timid You are still caged which I know for sure Revive, join the dance or forget about cure

Thank you. Here we go. From caress to indifference Either right or wrong Being two-faced and puzzling Could you last for long?! She sheds her skins The essense is ultimate If you do the same Think twice, it's intimate Both minds are twisted There is no doubt Her all craves for backup That's what it's about Look around yourself See the sacrificed Hurt her one more time She is mesmerized Everything is inconstant Wounds like opened doors She will not let go The choice is yours

Thank you, you make me feel great by liking my poetry. Here is something I just wrote: You don't seem to understand I can't force myself to explain From time to time I'm diving deep Into the whirlpool of snow white pain There's nothing wrong about being self-centered We are what we are by nature, it's right Once your interior blows with this anguish You've known the taste of losing the light The last thing I want is to make you feel guilty It's not your fault, the problem is mine However, care means being warm inside It would be enough to ask: 'Are you fine?' I wonder how I could go that far Now recognizing my paths' track It will be good, I let it all out Just give me my broken life back! Cheers!