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Crap, I just realized he has my box of christmas decorations, my motorbike helmet & jacket and a * * * * load of dirty pictures of me on what was once our computer... Eff...should I call him later and ask for me stuff back and tell him to delete those pics? I really don't want him to have them...but we haven't been in contact for almost a month (except for once when he called to yell at me)... ADVICE PLEASE AND THANKS

Gonna stop counting the days, it doesn't really matter anyways. I so wish he would contact me though, is that a bad thing to wish for? I've been so tempted so many times to contact him but I won't, I know not to. I know that no matter whether he responds or not the outcome would only be bad for me emotionally. Oh break ups...why must you be so darn hard.

Gonna stop counting the days, it doesn't really matter anyways. I so wish he would contact me though, is that a bad thing to wish for? I've been so tempted so many times to contact him but I won't, I know not to. I know that no matter whether he responds or not the outcome would only be bad for me emotionally. Oh break ups...why must you be so darn hard.

Uggghhh he drove by my house yesterday in the big beautiful truck that used to be ours. He lives so close I never realized that he actually has to drive by my house to go to and from work. The urge to call/text him (and say what?...I don't know) was so ridiculously strong...so hard to resist...but I did...and now today that urge is still there. Must ignore it.

This is a photo I took a while ago. I always really liked it, but have never really showed it to anyone. It's just kinda been my secret favorite thing to look at. I use the old school dark room method, it's like meditation...too bad all the dark rooms have gotten ridiculously expensive over the years. Old technology I suppose. Anyways, please feel free to give feedback. If you like it, or not, what emotions it provokes, if any, etc. Thanks for reading and viewing! image removed

I would like to share a photograph with all of you, but for some reason it says that I am not able to post attachments. Any help would be appreciated. Thank you!

"Dada Descending a Staircase" The mist, the moon, the night, the sky. The sun, the sounds, the ray's of light. The river, the rocks, the time goes by. The telling, the treacherous, the universal sigh. Wrote this quickly this morning, the title may not seem to have anything to do with the subject matter unless you look up "Dadaism" or have some basic knowledge of art history...think Hugo Ball. He is an artist who once said (about Dadaist artists) "For us, art is not an end in itself ... but it is an opportunity for the true perception and criticism of the times we live in."

Yesterday in the a.m. was Day 1 of official no contact. We have been broken up for almost 2 months...there are spurts of a few weeks of no contact and spurts of talking. But I decided to do the 30 day challenge. However, Day 1 (yesterday) did not go as planned. I did totally fine, but he felt the need to call me from a blocked number and yell at me for hanging out with "his" friend (this person is a mutual friend). He then proceeded to tell me he's not dating the new person I was told he was dating and that he's not sure if he wants me back or not (I didn't ask he volunteered this info.). Why is he doing this to me? If he wants me he can come and get me, if he doesn't why won't he just leave me alone? ](*,)