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I am healing . I miss you and you will always be a part of my heart. I wish you happiness. You left me but thats okay. I love you and so i forgive you. when you left me, you made me realise how much i loved you. I hope God reads this and sends you back in my life. You are my cutiepie.

rhino , now please stop being senti and come out of here....you were all so cleaned up....now again in a mess....no no no I will help you and you will help me...enu has people going through similar situations....so I know your condition.....totally coconut....tough from outside.....and soft from within.....still....even after 2 months !! rhino

US>??? to me not to us!!

i dont understand whats wrong with me? why am I mad about You? why? you were my first love. You made me feel like princess. Everything was going well for 2 years ! at the end, when i requested you to tell about us to your mom, she spoilt everything !! She brainwashed you to concentrate on your career for the next 4 yrs , with absolutely NO CONTACT with me !! Suddenly after 2 yrs, you left me , all lonely ! Also, I have found that you played with my trust in many other ways. why do i still love you? why why why. Its just been a month since you left me. I dont really know what I want from life, now. Whether you are really worth me? WHy am i craving for you, what if i get you back, and still dont want you anyways ? I am so confused!! I thought for long, then I realised that when so nice people in this forum are encouraging me to move on and convincing me that a guy will actually come up to me and love me forever , for the real beauty that i am, but I still hold on to my feelings , wishing that, You come to me, All changed. I dont want any other guy, however better He may treat me, all i want is YOU, with all the good qualities a guy must have. WHy is that so , God? Please tell me , if this is true love or just an infatuation ? for those who dont know the story, ask me , I have posted it as another thread! Its that he showed true love for 2 yrs in my life, and suddenly, when his mom told him to leave me, even as a friend, I became all lonely without him. We had plans to be together for the rest of our lives, but his parents, i guess, have different plans. He is 22 ( to be in 2 months), but Since he says he is financially dependent, he needs to make his career, so told me to wait, he din't leave me for any other girl, just plainly left me !! now, i dont know how much he means by telling me to wait! GOd knows if he will actually come to me ! but 4 years is too long, i know him just for 2 yrs. I would have been okay but why no contact !! his mom hates me like hell .. and she successfully snatched him from me! I so hate her!! If he really loved me, he would have fought! but i dunno wats it like exactly..His cell phone with his mom all the time, so he cannot contact, no access to even the internet, Gosh i am going crazy. He is being trained at home , to completely forget me , so that , he can actaully forget me completely. ( that line was funny ) . how the hell will he then come back ? if he forgets me ? I am afraid what if he finds some new lady love ? He was a very cute guy, and treated me so well. We were so emotionally attached. and so mutually supportive. Always we were together. And we had a bad habit of avoiding all around us, when we were in each other's company ! This is so strange...

you told me to wait for you for 4 yrs , with no contact at all. I am ready for that too, but how do I know that you mean it?

i still miss you a lot . i know whatever happened, was not good. I wanna let you know that I still love you, a lot! I am okay with your decision to not talk any more. But i know, watever you did, you were under pressure, i know you can just not stop loving me like that! i am sorry..

i dont miss you anymore