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the_dawn replied to Nynnja's topic in Healing After Break Up or Divorce
Are you thinking about me at all? I know you've got someone else now, but do you ever feel lonely? was I really so bad to you? so many questions that I don't have answers to, but even if I had I know it wouldn't make it any easier. Miss you so much, would like to hold you in my arms again, kiss you and hear that you missed me as well... It's been three months now, but I still love you, still have that stupid hope. Please someone take the pain away and let me move on, let me pick myself up and just move on. the_dawn -
Hi yogi, I'd suggest this thread: especially post #8. the_dawn
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Day 20 something Today would've been our 9 year anniversary. Trying to stay positive and keep my mind focused on something else. I have to say it is going pretty well so far. Glad it's not the weekend. the_dawn
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Day 21 yesterday was good, today is worse. Woke up at 3am and could not fall asleep, millions of thoughts running through my head. I am trying to let it go, let her be, heal myself, but sometimes it's so damn hard. Perhaps if she wasn't with someone that would've made it a bit easier...can't get over the fact of being replaced in a blink of an eye. the_dawn
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Day 20 (I think) Today I'm actually quite fine to be honest. Starting to let it all go, I'm sure this isn't permanent, but I'm in peace for now. Still love her, but I know I need to let her go. the_dawn
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Day whatever, feel like sh*t again, gets harder somehow instead of getting better. Have no urge to call for some reason, but would so much want to hold her close. Emptiness and loneliness is killing me. the_dawn
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the_dawn replied to Nynnja's topic in Healing After Break Up or Divorce
If I could go back and focus more on us I would do it in a blink of an eye. I miss you so much and wish you could be here with me, laughing, acting funny and simply being yourself. I'm so sorry for pushing you away, for not being there for you when you needed me, for not being nice and for being so blind to what you were going through. I honestly love you with all my heart, you were my everything, my best friend, my lover, my companion. -
Hi mate, yeah I reckon it will be a long and bumpy road and the thought of them together simply kills me, even though I try to think about it as little as I can, normally distracting myself somehow when my mind enters that thought track. Of course dreaming about her every night doesn't make the process any easier. the_dawn
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Day 15 I hit a rough patch, somehow it's back to square 1 again. Dunno if it's normal after two weeks or not, but I seriously have moments when I feel like sh*t. All those thoughts running through my head, missing her to bits, hating her a few minutes later when I realise she's with someone and that they hooked up only a month after our break up. Can't cope with it, cannot understand it, just simply cannot understand it... the_dawn
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Hi Igelchen, you know you can always talk to yourself. I do it all the time, I just walk around the apartment and talk out loud. Is it a bit crazy? probably, but easier than keeping it all inside your head. Probably similar to you talking to the chickens and probably easier than talking to people, who sooner or later get sick of you. the_dawn
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Day 13 Was doing quite well yesterday, but had a dream about us getting back together and I feel worse today. Hopefully that will pass... the_dawn
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Hi mate, going through the same here so I know what you mean. You get days when it's ok and days that are simply hard to go through, it's normal. If you're in the middle of nowhere and you have some space at home you can always buy a set of weights (like dumbbells) and exercise at home. That's what I did, got me some equipment for around 100 quid and that keeps me occupied, at least for now. the_dawn
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Hi guys, star111: what was in the email? was it the usual 'how are you?' or something else? Igelchen: you just need time mate, perhaps less drinking so you are more aware and less prone to make mistakes like texting/calling etc. What have you been doing to occupy yourself? having something to do and not think about the ex is quite important, so join a gym, go ride a bike or something similar. Usually stuff you do on your own can be a bit easier as you are not surrounded by people who are happy, couples kissing and such like. I think it makes the NC period a bit easier. I'm on the end of my 2nd week and feeling a bit better to be honest. I've went from being sad and missing her to being mad at her and seeing the whole situation from a different perspective. On the other hand I have no idea how she can be with some other guy and only a month after the break up. Personally I couldn't be with anyone at the moment, it's just all too fresh and there's so much that would bring back the memories. I guess I still simply don't understand some of it. Seriously we all just need time and sometimes switching off our brains/thinking less. the_dawn