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It's been 3.5 months since we broke up and almost 1 month since we stopped talking. I still love you, I can't deny that. And I wonder if you ever think about me/miss me/have any regrets. But I know those are questions I will never know the answer to. I also know now that us breaking up was the right and best thing to happen to me. Maybe one day we will be able to be friends again but if not..that's okay too. Life goes on, and my world didn't stop when you walked out of it. I'm stronger, more mature, and more independent than I knew I was capable of, and I have you to thank for allowing me to discover that part of myself.

You got a job in Ottawa for September. You'll be 6-7 hours away from my university. I'm going to miss you.

Don't remember what day it is. Feeling sad because the long weekend is coming up and normally we would go to a friend's bbq together and watch fireworks together Not happening this year. Also it's kind of scary but I can't really remember what his voice sounds like anymore..

Day 4 of NC, day 6 since the breakup Yesterday was really, really hard. I came so close to contacting you after the earthquake. But I didn't, and I'm glad I didn't. I know you went out clubbing last night. I wonder if you really had fun and you're happy or if you're just trying to distract yourself. You asked my best friend how I was doing yesterday. I don't know how to take that. You must know that she was going to tell me. Does that mean you want to know how I'm doing so badly that you would resort to asking my best friend, or that you want her to let me know so that I'll think you care?

Day 1 of NC (almost) over, day 3 of the breakup. I broke up with him, though my hand was pretty much forced, I didn't want to (he has a crush on best girl friend right now). Broke up with him Friday night, he called me twice on Saturday and once on Sunday before I told him that we need to go NC because he's still confused and there's no way he can figure out his feelings for her while still talking to me. I originally said 2 weeks NC and we'll see how it goes from there but he asked for 1 week. The day has passed by so slowly..I've hid him from my Facebook newsfeed, deleted all my texts, avoid going on MSN etc. I also haven't cried today! Which I'm pretty proud of. I wonder if he misses me and thinks about me all the time though.