TurtleDove12

Hello. I love you. Won't you tell me your name? Wait...what??!!

Cheated on me with that guy. Dated him for a month, and then decided that this druggy wasn't worth it, and just became sex buddies with him...nice going. I've realized that you're a leech. You leeched off of myself to satisfy your own insecurities and to get things you wanted...and you're doing it to this guy (although don't think that just allowing him to screw you and not being in a relationship is going to push him away, that'll actually excite him most likely). Good luck with all that.

Sorry your rebound with the loser druggy didn't work out. I'm going to try to forget that I even found that out. I'm going to try to know as little about you as possible. You left me. Please don't try to enter my life at all. Ever. This is my life. You can have yours.

Here it is. 7/3/2010. Your birthday. I'm not going to wish you a happy birthday in person. And when you come into work later today, you're not going to see me. Not that it matters anyway. Regardless, I'll say it here. Happy Birthday.

What did I do wrong? What could I have done better? You knew I would've made every sacrifice to make you happy. I tried so hard. I wish you hadn't thrown it away like that. I wanted us to have a chance regardless of all the bull****. It wasn't all * * * * ed, we really could have been something special. We were something special. I'm listening to Peter Gabriel's Book Of Love...a song you and I shared. I wish you were out there missing me and would come back to me. I miss you so much. I'll always love you. I know you're probably living life without a care in the world about this, but it hurts me deeply. You've meant everything to me for so long, I don't know how to love anyone else. As much as I need to focus on myself, my love for you is endless. I wish you the best of happiness...even without me. Please come home.

I noticed you're taking some days off next month. Where are you going? I wish I were coming with you. This last day and a half have been the worst. I wish you cared. Jealousy is posioning me, I'm trying to let it go.

I miss you. I truly do. It all seems so wrong. You brought so much light into my life. I wish you missed me. I wish so many things.

I've no idea what you're up to. I'm trying my best not to care. But I wish you well I suppose.

Your birthday's coming up. I want to wish you a happy birthday and tell you that I love you. And that I miss you. My brother saw you biking today. He said you were wearing all black...like usual. I wish you wanted me the way I want you. I wish so many things.

Dear 'Sara,' I've really been missing you over this past month...and I miss you now. I love you with all of my heart. I wish we were still together. I need to reach a place where I wouldn't even take you back, but I'm simply not there yet. I wish you hadn't cheated on me, and I really think we had something special. I wish you realized that, now. I do appreciate the great times in our relationship...and they always outweighed the bad times...we were a great couple, understanding of each other, and I feel that we both love and miss each other to this day. I don't know how you could just throw it away like that...it meant everything to me, and I think it meant more to you than you might have let on. It drives me crazy that I'm not in contact with you right now. I miss you. I miss the way you made me feel. I miss you. I miss us. This too shall pass. I just wish that things hadn't worked out the way they did. I'll never understand...and I guess ultimately I don't really want to understand...and don't want you back. But right now, my heart is overpowering my mind. I love you. But I won't contact you. I won't get sucked back in. I'm going to get through this.