HopefulDrew

I'm so tired of thinking about you. I have a great day and I wish I could share it with you. I have a bad day and I want to see you to pick me up. I keep trying to accept that I might not ever talk to you again. And I can't. I won't. I can't ever imagine being indifferent towards you. This would be so much easier if I could have negative feelings towards you, but I don't. I trust the day will come when you are willing to speak to me. I'll be excited to hear from you. This really sucks. I miss you.

There are so many things I want to say to you. In such a short time you really had an incredible impact on me. I'm certain my insecurity pushed you to breaking up. And then it flared up in a big way afterwards. I was crushed by the results of my own actions. You were doing what was best for you. I have realized so much what I need to do live a better life. I had a good one before you. With you I saw a future of a great one. And now that you are gone, I have realized what I have to do to have a great one with or without you. I know I have more work to do. And it will be a never ending process of always improving. I want to hope that one day you will want to know how I am doing. But that isn't the best for me. Everyday I have to remind myself to say goodbye to you. I still feel like it is crazy that my feelings are so strong for someone I was still really getting to know. But I saw something very special in you. You are incredible and I want nothing but wonderful things for you.

Don't you love when your friends have no idea how to help! After my breakup, I was absolutely miserable. And my best friend was trying to get me question my ex's motives! How the hell does that help? The last thing you need to do in that situation is to try and figure out what the ex was thinking. Looking back I wish I would have punched him that day

If he was terrible to you, then once you regain your confidence you won't take him back. That should be your one goal right now, get your confidence back.