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  1. it pisses me off that you're probably out having fun on a saturday night, while im at home sitting here and thinking of you. weekends suck. I hope yours isnt that great either.
  2. I love you. I miss you. I know you love me and miss me too. Please come home.
  3. where the heck do you keep coming up with all these random numbers? lol
  4. Day 46... its weird... I suddenly have no interest in reading the "getting back together" forum and have been more interested in "healing after a breakup" and even the "dating" section, lol!. I still love my ex, and honestly, i would probably still go back to him if he wanted to reconcile, but I am no longer dwelling on getting him back or coming up with ways to get him back or anything silly like that. Also, it kind of hurts to read a lot of the posts in this section. There is just so much pain and desperation and I dont really want to go back to those feelings. I will continue to post on this thread though! I find it really helpful, and it's kinda like my journal entry for the day. the night before last I had a dream that my ex from 5 years ago came back to me. Now THAT was a mindf**k
  5. Day 44... I actually had to go back and count the days so i think that's a good sign. Today I think I finally started realizing that I really don't want my ex back. I love him and miss him, but if he came back to me tomorrow, I don't know that I could actually even take him back. That may be due to the fact that the new guy I am kinda seeing is SUPER HOT ... but still, the feelings are there. I can't stop thinking about this new guy. I havn't thought about getting back together with my ex all day, which is a huge step for me. I dont know how long itll last, but it feels good not to be constantly trying to figure out how to get him back. im sure ill get an e-slaponthewrist for rebounding, but oh well. he knows that i just got out of a relationship and he makes me happy *shrug*
  6. Today is day 41 for me.... i havnt posted the last few days, as things have been mostly okay... though I did hear another confirmation that he is moving to colorado with his new girl... it's kinda hard for me to swallow that it really may be true and he really may be going through with it, but it doesnt matter. I can't stop him. I'm planning on breaking my nc on january 4th. I have to get my stuff back before he leaves and he has been logging on to my website almost everyday and posting. He told me he wouldnt log on because he knew it would hurt me and then last night he posts "link removed is the reason I am as awesome as I've become." anyways i wont go into that too much as theres a whole thread on that in the GBT section under "my ex joined my secret santa?" incase anyone wants to read the whole ordeal that ive been going through... anyways.. on january 4th i will be 49 days if i counted right. i hate to break it, but it's necessary. ive been thinking about it for a few days now and i am going to give myself another week to make sure it is something i really want to do.
  7. I really dont think you know how bad you hurt me. I hope you realize it someday.
  8. great. i just typed a really long post in here and it deleted itself. Summary: Day 35 and i feel like crap.
  9. Day 34... I'm feeling a little desperate... well, maybe desperate isn't the word but it feels like I might be getting there... more like a little uneasy. Even though I told him not to contact me unless he wanted to get back together, I really thought that he would have at least sent a text by now. I guess he is just respecting my decision. I know that he hasn't forgotten about me, but I wonder if he's happy without me and moving on with his life. I guess it's better that I don't know. I'm just hoping that he hasn't had enough time to really miss me yet. It's been 34 days, but it probably feels more like 2 weeks to him... I doubt he's realized that he hasn't talked to me in over a month... *sigh*
  10. Day 33... Not feeling great, but not feeling horrible... kinda feeling worse than the past couple of days but hopefully it will pass... I feel like all I can think about is him spending time with the new girl. Going to places we used to go, doing the things we used to do... even if it's just sitting around watching tv. It makes me sad to think of all the times we would sit on separate couches and watch tv... i wish we cuddled more. i wish i didnt take him for granted. I miss him so much. I wish everything was back to how it used to be. It just makes me upset to think of all those little things that he is doing with her now. i hate her. and now im gonna stop writing or im gonna cry...
  11. thats tricky then, personally if you are trying to stick to nc i would try as hard as possible to avoid him if you can!
  12. as long as you dont talk to him, i dont think so. you dont really have control of him just randomly showing up... if you're going somewhere because you know he will be there that might be a different story
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