I can't believe I allowed you to treat me this way so long. I bent over backwards for you and tried so hard to make our relationship work. You NEVER put in any effort. I cared so much about you and you were the only one I pictured myself growing old with (at least, at one point in time). It didn't have to be this way! Why couldn't you have tried? Why did I always come last on your priority list? You were always just "really busy". Why did you stay with me for so long when you couldn't be in this 100%? Why did you always leave me out of the loop? I thought a relationship was about sharing our lives together. You made me feel naggy, clingy, and b!tchy, and I am NOT any of those things - I just wanted to be a part of your life, the way I made you a part of mine. I feel so stupid reading all this back and not leaving sooner, but I wasn't ready. It didn't have to be this way! Go hang out with your loser immature 19 year old new friends who became way more important than our relationship, and took precedence EVERY SINGLE TIME. You make yourself out to be a martyr but you're just plain SELFISH.