lotus26

You are a pig. My father died on sunday i needed you so much, you're father has also died i thought you would be able to help i thought you would know how i felt. I called and called you, you text me "sorry, you will be ok, seeya" i hate you. you are cold heartless and disgusting. Regardless if you have another girl i reached out to you as a friend, you make me sick. i will NEVER contact you or look in youre dicection again

Day 16. we live 2 streets away, i was walking down the main street today and for the first time since we broke up i had a moment where i was not looking for you. I honestly dont think we will ever speak again.

Day 15! I woke up this morning and i realised a hour later that he was not the first thing i had thought about this morning and i had not even checked my phone. Maybe i am on my way to feeling better? We have been broken up about 7 weeks now, i look back seven weeks ago when i couldnt stop crying i couldnt eat and i didnt leave the house for 10 days, we were in LC until 15 days ago until i decided enough is enough i need to heal! Its funny when you start of NC you start off thinking you're going to do this so they miss you and want you and will contact you but as the days and weeks go on you realise you actually are doing it for yourself to heal not so they miss you or want you back. Even though its only been 15 days for me i have started to see the relationship was not as "peachy" as i once thought. Anyone who is unsure about NC or is finding it hard to stick to it PLEASE give it a really good go, its actually true, it makes you feel so much better. Why would you want to keep in contact with someone who doesnt want you in there lifes. Look after youreself first.

Day 14! 2 weeks, its killing me Has he moved on and forgotton about me? I would love to contact him, but i know it would break my heart when/if he replied. whats the point! bring on week 3!

Almost day 14! I cant believe i have managed to have 2 weeks NC. I really miss him and its still really really hard. Does it get easier? Was asking him not to contact me the right thing? surly LC doesnt work So many questions but i have to be strong and not break NC.

You turned me in to this needy, desperate woman, someone i hate. I am not going to let you do this to me anymore. Sure i still miss you, sure for some unknown reason i still love you. But really why am i wasting so much energy on a man that lies and cheats. you are the worst kind of human, you think its ok. You prey on vunerable women, i had to much of a personality for you, you told me you're self i have no much of a "mouth" god forbid a woman that speaks her mind. Go find you're little yes girl you can boss around and feel goos about, cause that aint me. You are pathetic, you are a liar and a cheat. you dont think what goes around comes around. Sure even if you do have a new girl do you think its going to last? ofcourse it wont cause you will screw it up, you're always looking fir the next best thing. who do you think you are. You know my friends used to laugh at you, my friends used to say OMG you can do so much better, looks meant nothing to me and i loved you despite what EVERYONE said, you were the laughing stock of everyone we saw you that day with some girl in trackies and a hoddie, you were embarressed, you know you were. Good luck baby, cause you;re gonna need it!

Day 12. Its getting tough cause i have realised it is over. After 5 weeks broken up and 12 days no contact there is no way he is thinking about me. I miss him very much, i miss him more because i felt like i have lost my bestfriend, someone i could call 5 times a day and laugh about random * * * * . I went to the pub monday, my friend took my phone away straight away, funny thing was in was not really tempted. My heart is still breaking though

Day 11 arrrgh i cant believe its come to this! But i will be ok, I have planned a overseas holiday from australia to LA over christmas, i have started at the gym, things are looking up even though my heart is breaking and i cant leave my house in case i see him. how do i react if i see him with another girrl? he knows i still love him

Day - 10 Its weird, 10 days without talking. I cant believe its 10 days. I do miss him, and i do want to break NC, but i wont! I wont give him the satisfaction! Last time i broke NC i felt awful! terrible! its just not worth it. As much as i would love to talk, what for? its totally over, I think i am getting to the stage of i dont want to get back together now, I am strating to see im for what he really is. a Liar! NC really is the best option. Now when i walk down the street i can hold my head high if i see him, like i would every beg! and i know thats wht all his ex gfs have done in the past, well not me.

I cant believe we have not spoken in 10 days. 10 days, do you even care? we live 2 streets away, i feel like i cant even leave my house and go to the supermarket, i dont want to bump in to you ever. You have made me feel so stupid, i caught you telling lies, how did you think i felt the day you dumped me , via text to! only to see you a few hours later with the ugliest girl ever, you saw me, you * * * * your'e self, i had caught you. My whole world feel apart, i cried i vomited but i didnt let you see any of that, i played it so cool, you dont dererve to see me hurt. My friends were laughing at you, at you're pathetic attemps to latch on to the first girl who looked you're way, trackies and a hoddie is a really good look for girls in a bar babe! you were embarressed! thats why when i left you sent me all those messages, you know you screwed up. I went NC with you for 6 days, not because i wanted you back but becuase i though you didnt deserve me after that, i would never be so cruel to you, ever. Then i started to Miss you, stupid me gave in to you;re crap. We spent, thursday friday saturday and sunday together, you used me for sex by saturday is became obvious, on monday you decided once again you were to busy and couldnt give me what i wanted, once again you lied and tore my heart out, Last week it was my birthday, you forgot next day you send a message "oh it was your birthday" thats when i asked you to not contact me ever again, its been 10 days since and here we are. I love you but i hate you so muc. you're behaviour is disgusting. All those times you said you're relationships didnt work out cause the woman was crazy i look back now and see you are the crazy one. you lie so much you forget you're lies/ I wish you didnt live 2 streets away because i NEVER want to lay eyes on you again. Just a pathetic loser with a huge ego problem!

Day - 9 I cant believe we have not spoken in 9 days. He is stil the only thing i think about all day. I wonder when this feeling will stop. He is obviously over me, why cant i get over him. I miss everything about him. I love him

Day 8 - Woke up this morning, checked my phone hoping there was a message, there was none, ofcourse. But i am feeling better today. I am glad i am sticking to NC this time, there is no point to be in contact, what for? So he can have his ego stroked and i can feel worse and worse each day. Best thing i did was tell him not to contact me, even though i am dying to hear from him.

Why have you not contacted me? Its been seven days. Have you not throught about me, not even once? I asked you not to contact me, i wish i didnt,,,but i know its the only way i will get over you. I dont want to get over you, but we will never be the same again, everything is broken. you broke everything and you cant even be honest and tell me why. How dare you hurt me the way you did. How dare 2 weeks later you decide you made a huge mistake only to use me for sex and dump me again. why would you want to hurt me so bad. The last night we spoke i acted badly, i kept bringing up us, i was getting nasty, i regret that but i couldnt help it, you hurt me so much. I miss you more than anything i dont think i will ever meet anyone like you again. I have a hard time meeting men, you know i am shy. why did you do this to me? do you feel happier now?

Day 7 - i feel so bad, today is really the worst day. I cant stop crying and i miss him so much. why is he putting me through this. I love him so much. When will this feeling pass

Day 6 - I feel ok this morning. I am still avoiding going anywhere he might be or drive past or whatever, I am not ready for that just yet. Wonder if he has thought about me like i have been thinking about him. I begged him to stop contacting me cause i thought it was for the best, might help me heal faster, but i miss him so much