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kalikat

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  1. My father was just a month away from 75 when he passed away. And it was sudden - out of nowhere. I'm writing to you all here hopefully to help you get through this. Dad was also my best friend. he was the only one in the family that understood my quirkiness. The only one I could talk to as my marriage self- imploded. He supported my creativity - let me be my true self. We spoke on the phone about 3pm that day. I went to his house at 7pm and found him on his bathroom floor. Lots of other details, but bottom line - he was gone. Two weeks before, we had lost my mom's sister. Two weeks after, Mom had a massive stroke. Which she never quite recovered from. Everywhere I looked, everything was coming unhinged. Got a divorce. Lost my job. In that same year, we had 11 other people pass away in our family. I went into deep depression mode. What I call 'the black hole". barely functioning. Bathed maybe once a week. Ate peanut butter on bread - cuz it was easy & didn't require me to think. i am telling you all of this because Dad died almost 19 years ago. And as awful as everything seemed (and was), I am still here. It may not get any easier. And I Still miss him like it was just yesterday that he left us. BUT - Eventually you begin to sense them around you. The good memories together make you smile instead of cry. You learn to live your life for the living - your kids, your family. The pain never quite goes away. But it turns into something you can handle. The ache in your heart keeps him with you. Always. Embrace it. Not a day passes still that I don't think of my dad. Mostly with smiles. Sometimes with tears. But always, always with love...
  2. This will be the first of many - feel free to post any of your own
  3. just a thought - leave the portrait black & white - add a teeny bit of red to the wound, or just some red droplets for blood. that might give it that edge your looking for.
  4. awesome stuff! did you study? or are you blessed with natural talent?
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