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  1. You debased their currency by putting a tangible number on it, which is another way of saying, you took all the guess work out of how much the boys needed to spend to see you naked. They were probably mad that their boys are off looking at naked bodies that aren't their own, and you were just adding to "the problem" by providing a supply, there's still a ton of vitrol out there about boyfriends and husbands looking at porn. We are in very turbulent times, I agree on this.
  2. Actaully, if you go back to her previous post before this one and reread it, your experinece makes a ton of sense. First, you weren't on the inside, so they were hard towards you. And second, they were women drunk on power - that's what they had, and they loved the expeirence. As boyish as they sound, their behavior is rather common amongst males after going out... I dare say they Are women, not girls, but only because as I get older I've come to realize our mental brain boxes stop chainging after about five or six. We may add things to adapt to our adult world, but hte forces at play under the carpet are the exact same issues we dealt with when we were on the playground - and we're no better at dealing with those issues now then we were back then. So they are women, like men, but what we both understand as being "immature." But then, true maturity is a very rare condition, most people don't have it. Oh, but it makes perfect sense. You cheated the system, can't you see? The system has that declared you as a woman CANNOT make your living by selling your body! To prove your worth, you have to do something "productive," or "respectable," or "clean." You went and did the obvious, you sold your body, and you LOVE Doing it! And you have experienced more power in your few hours than they have ever felt in their life... $5900 a month, $70,800 a year, and you started with no experience, no resume, no degrees, nothing but your body and your internal drive to do it? Rock on...
  3. Found a new one at the bookstore: 'Attached', by Levine and Heller... It's pretty good thus far...
  4. I have no realized that the pain I feel si all cause by me, and thus it is time I stop that pain. NC is now re-instated, after one final email during our LC stage. yes, ti was necessary. Yes, this is going to be good. I'm going much freer now.
  5. Captain's Log Mark II The small milk run for local Space Port is nearing completion. While the job was light, the income has made the necessary balance. The supplies have been more than adequate to keep the ship fueled and the lights powered. Local law enforcement officials have come down hard on our apparent lack of adherence to hailing frequency protocol. We seemed to have missed the memo about the coversheets for TPS reports. Regardless, we have now found a number of primary systems hampered by their boot locks. Engineering has looked into the matter and after re-routing power through a few previously unused channels, we will regain 95% of our previous funtionality. Overall, it appears the efficiency of funtionality will improve. Two more weeks of this merry orbit and we'll be docked to our new host, and with docking this planet will be far behind!
  6. Hey, it's OK!! Now it's time to just start over again! One thing that helps? Learn to laugh at yourself! I laughed at myself when I broke my NC rule. A sense of humor helps out in so many situations, particularly those that are just so utterly and logically ridiculous, it always comes in handy!!
  7. Hot girls turned me on to Def Leppard...and I love it... I have no problems with Hair Bands. Lots of stuff I like, and I realize my colleciton is 1/8th what it needs to be to be anywhere near complete!
  8. Once upon a time, there was a sweet young brown-eyed lass named Autumn Love and everywhere she went, she found people who loved her, and protected her, and said they cherished her. On day, she crossed an evil hag in the forest, who told her that if she parted with a bite from her lunch, she would provide her with a tall handsome prince. But Autumn Love was hungry, and declared that such a man did not exist on this planet, so she instead slew the evil hag, for begging when she clearly shouldn't have begged. But in her dying words, the evil hag threw a dark curse upon Love: She would indeed find her Shining Knight in Armor, and he would be the only person on this planet who could love and cherish her in the way that she so richly deserved to be treated, but he would die in her name before she ever even learned his name or knew what he looked like. This did not scare her one bit, for she had many such curses place upon her before by thousands of previously stupid old begging hags. And just to make sure, every knight she met she refused to speak to until after he had removed his helmet. And seeing how every one was ugly and stunk of garlic or something foul, she typically smote their heads off immediately after while they were bowing and groveling at her feet. And so time passed; the numbers of hags and knights piled high about her kingdom. But one day, she met a dashing young knight quite different. Though while he still had on his helmet, he was polite, he was sweet, and he offered her great things not before offered by any knight. And just as he was about to take off his helmet so that she could smite off his head as he beseeched his name her to, a furball of a creature tumbled out of the forest, playfighting with a raccoon and a squirrel. And though she was a bit horrified and mostly perturbed, he jumped up and declared he would save her from the this evily cute cuddly little furball. After half a day fighting, and chasing, and fighting, he finally locked the furball inside of a large barn, and then set the whole place ablaze from inside. Of course, he died. And so from that day on, princess Autumn Love could only wonder what the man of her dreams really looked like, for the only one she wanted after that day was the dashing young knight who was burnt to a crisp saving her honor from a cute furry little furball.
  9. Ok, so I'm back to...day..um...I lost track. It's either day two now, or day three. I think day two, if today is indeeed a Monday. Yes, I do believe it is. My last message to her was Saturday, it was good for putting nails in the coffin and putting a lot of uneasiness to rest. I feel great today. I went through my computer looking at old pictures and old files. I'm keeping the albums of my life as they are, as this is a part of my life that has past. I also ran into a number of old documents that I wrote and saved during past breakups. That alone was a very reinforcing activity, because it highlighted many of the issues I have had with her over the years. In the end, she is set in her ways and the world be damned she's going to live her path exactly as she wishes. I am so very better off without her. I visited her Myspace page last night. It was a very good experience because her status helped cement all over again jsut how gone she is. She's in the throbs of her new relationship, in a way that makes me laugh when I think about how once we were int hat same spot. Now I seem to remember the first crash happening about two months after we started dating. I wish her the best, but I do hope that man has kept his dating insurance current!! I resurrected my music collection off of my old computer. It took 6 hours to transfer it to my laptop with a 1 GB jump drive, blasted 1.0 USBs on that old computer!! It took 30 minutes for each transfer that took a little under two minutes on my new laptop. I am now resolute in my decision to upgrade to new computers, it's a smart idea when you have file counts in the GB and TB domains!! But now I have it, and it's so good to hear it again. Floyd, RHCP, aerosmith, Def leppard, Blue Oyster Cult, Weird Al, there's a lot there. There's still much I don't have, but once I get in the service I'm going on an album buying spree!! Anyhow, all is well that ends well. And today, my relationship has ended well. I'm still not friends with her, and I will not be giving her that satisfaction for at least a year. So that means September 2010 I might be more considerate of her! I have stuff to do today, and then tomorrow I should have a lot of hard work to do. If I am good, i will do 40 hours of work in the next four days. that wouls be IDEAL!
  10. It's just depressing that being a great person is sometimes just not enough...
  11. I'm back to day one this morning hey, it felt really good!!! I was miserable for most of friday, much better now!
  12. Yeah, you're probably right... but I am doing different stuff today. I picked up a new mouthpiece for this tenor sax I bought but haven;t ever played, all because I didn't have a piece to play it...and I'm transferring my music colleciton from my PC to my laptop [copy, not cut!] I'm moving forward, I do believe. The Feeling of GREAT is not hope - it's the sense of knowing I stood up for myself and I did not let her dictate to me what this life is or how to live it. And THAT felt like me taking back a piece of myself I gave her way too long ago!
  13. So she texted me last night. I don[t rememer if this breaks the NC rules, but I had to respond. And the further we got, the more clearer it got that she simply was not listening to me. So I finally put the texter down and picked up the puter and sent ehr a good solid email fully detailing the matters in such a way that she could no longer apply her shallow way of thinking to my state of being and her view of love any longer. She apologized for contacting me, told me she would not contact me, though someday we can talk and hopefully be friends...[hehe, oh boy...]..., but clearly Iam still in pain over this whole ordeal and her words are just causing me more pain. [well duh!] I might have given her a bit too much entertainment, but I will say this - she is NOT getting MY cake any longer and eating her's too!!! so, do I go back to day one, or am I now on day 6? Cause I'm fine with going back to Day one, I feel GREAT today!!!
  14. This is now day 2 - I had to go back to Day one after seeing her thursday, running into her on Friday, and getting a good complete conversation in with her on Saturday. Things are much calmer now, especially for me; I have my closure. It is not how I had wanted it, if I ever wanted it, but then we wouldn't be here if this was just me. She's a person too. And now she's cut off. I will receive messages, but that is all. I don't have to worry about that, though, because I know she won't be sending any!! As the Op long ago said, you sat there and held her hand while she was breaking up with you - and now that she's done, what has she done? Gone and dumped you holding nobody but yourself, and you have yourself to blame!!! Hehe, I also deleted her on Facebook. She keeps her long term friends there, she says. now why on earth do I want to be just friends, after I wanted to be so much more?? this is jsut letting her have her cake and eat it too No, she can't have her Cake and eat it too!!! I OBJECT!!! Out withthe old...out with the old, and on to the new!!
  15. I remember reading the book, becoming disgusted with the concept, and threw it out. Simply put, not my style. I'm happy too.
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