MrWhite

I shouldn't be worried about your understanding of the NC period but I'm glad you understand why I need this. I don't think you know why you need me around when you're doing great in your recovery. Are you really? Well, it doesn't matter anymore. Regarding the texting on Christmas and NYE, do whatever you feel like doing but don't expect my reply. I started the first NC period with the wrong intentions but rest assure that this time is about me. It's not revenge nor punishment for you. It's something for me and about me. Like I told you today, I hope the best for you but also for me and right now, you're not it. You asked if I lied when I said you were my best friend... I didn't lie. NC is my strategy to overcome this. You chose a different one which I respect. Take care of yourself and don't worry. You'll be ok. (I hope this is my last post in this thread. It helped me a lot.)

I know you don't deal well with pressure but I also know you understand the reasons of yesterday's texting. I had to broke the NC to be sure of your intentions. Before yesterday, you had been very unclear with the words but very assertive with the attitude. Since things didn't add up, I needed to sort that out. As I told you, I rather prefer to deal with the truth than a fake illusion. Now I'm sure that there's no chance for us again. And that's ok. Like they say: it takes two to tango. Does it hurt knowing it's really over? It does. And do you know what really upsets me? Knowing that I had everything from you and still failed to value it. I guess I'm learning the hard way. I hope we can heal properly and find what makes us happy. Regarding the issues you're going through in the office, don't worry. Just do what you do best and things will sort out naturally.

Sorry I had to start NC with you but it's not making me any good to see you or even think of you. It's not fair seeing you moving on and me being stucked in the same spot day in day out. You know it's you I want and at the moment you're not on the same page and I understand your reasons. I know I was the one messing things up and can only hope my explanations were clear to you. I'm really sorry... You know you've been my best friend but that's just not possible anymore. Hurts too much.