I went through something very very similar to what you had to experience. Just somehow worse. Yes, it can be worse. It's been almost 2 years and I am in a much better place. I thought I am... However recently I have had a significant pull back. My symptoms are idealization of the person who used to be my husband for almost 20 years, flashbacks of happy moments, happy dreams, thoughts that I will never meet anyone as good as he was and a huge sense of guilt. Sometimes unbearably huge. For that I was not good enough. I went through this stage once, I came back to my happiness alone, I was not dating, I thought I almost 100% adjusted and was quite happy and balanced most of the time. And now this again. What is that? Why? Will I ever be free?"